I... nvm..............

That night... when my lights are off... just like ah du's "bi shang yan jing jiu shi tian hei..." it was torturous... i was... almost as if underwater... there was no breathing... almost... ever imagine how it will feel like if you get those big black metal clips and put them at both ends of your heart?

I hate the idea of committing suicide. I look down on the people who actually think of that. I call them selfish and stupid. But... hey if you are like me... well... i hope from now onwards you can lessen that view of yours... because... you will never understand why until you felt it...