I was talking... (and mainly bullshitting like how i always do), then i realised that somehow it's imbued in me this kind of attitude.

He was pissed that he did extra stuff and yet got scolded. And he was going on and on about being the only guy in HQ who is working. He was complaining about how he doesn't get the manpower help when he needs help and when people needs help, he would be there.

I didn't really think about it, but i just said why can't he does those things out of goodwill? Out of friendship? Or maybe just because deep down in his heart he wants to help?

Then after that he said fucked it he only wants the best soldier. So i said doesn't it shows that everything he did, he did them so as to get the credit, to get the verbal compliment, or the "Hey sng you are damn helpful la..."

His attitude puzzled me. It is almost as if he hasn't had any glory before, and he craves for it. But is it worth all the stress like what he's going through now? I mean why can't people live simply... you know... help when you can... then the job will get done faster... and we can all sit down and play some tai dee...

He was very angsty... against the organisation... well... i was too, when subjected to unfairness. I guess i haven't experienced that for very long thus resulting in this laidback attitude. Or maybe i am already too used to the system. Serve and fuck off. Do a passable job and wait for days to pass.

When we went to the cookhouse, i discover the meticulous(spelling?) side of him. Jing jing ji jiao... somehow everything must be calculated to the decimal... like how much help he gets = how much help he returns. Even asking him to help take watermelon for us was replied with a tongue-in-cheek "We colleagues k... so no helping..." even though in the end he did, it showed something...

This post isn't meant to make fun or insult Sng... He's like the coolest guy in the office... Actually i wanted to write on friendship, but this came out...