i wrote tat kinda stuff when i first started my blog...everyone knows that....it was all awful...really really degrading....now i see a deja vu manz....whew....i think i will need to wait 1 yr plus b4 someone's matured enough....

why so much hatred? why???
seriously is there a need to??
are u sure u want to let me see that ugly side of urs??
start thinking of peaceful ppl....start thinking....really....erm...right now i am thinking...perhaps bcos of the ppl that had a bit of impact on me recently...i will think of dennis...well...i love tat guy manz...he's like...peaceful....i will call him an angel...for this....i respect him...not many can earn my respect...u can see it from the way i talk...i think of gary oso...he's one hell of a great guy....someone else?? erm....well....kenneth....tat idiotic piece of shit...well no matter how idiotic and how shitty he is...he is one farking peaceful guy....for tat....juz for tat....if nothing else...i respect him too....i can still go on...about how matured he is....how matured all of them are....ppl whom i always wish i am like....ppl whom i work towards...juz trying to be tat small part of which they possessed....peaceful ppl...conclusion...is that...they are ppl whom others look up to.

long long time ago...i used to haf this shit about 'downgrading'...when someone did smth stupid...tat really is stupid...he juz gives me tat impression tat he's juz downgrading himself...tau knows it...i told him even...he laughs it off and continues doing it...until he's like negative...but deep down...i knew he got it....yar anyway...tat time i was negative too....not anywhere near zero definitely....

why stoop?
given the chance to rise...why stoop??

i was...........erm....a bit shocked juz now...although it was true...i gotta admit... true...really....but...tats all kinda "seeing from only one angle"....u know...like....okie rubin will juz ask me to shut up even b4 i start saying...but very simply...an orange on a table...u juz look at it w/o moving...how much of the orange can u see....wad if tat side u see is rotting...wif maggots and shit...and a lame leg there too...well.....go on and throw the orange away...

i am feeling damn lousy now saying how these...brings back my shitty side...haha...yea u know...full of shit side...perhaps i shud juz del this whole thing off and be a matured young chap....why bother?? why stoop to such a level??