lots of things to write...


but i've got one ques... whenever people read wad i wrote... wad impression are they actually starting from?

... can they actually sense the strain? ... hope they don't... cos i am a happy guy... i keep all sad things in me... yeah right... i don't... i explode with all the sadness to people around me... ermmm.... i am confused now...

i am a vulgar, straightforward guy who says wad i want.

tired.... everyone's tired... everyone at this age is tired... everyone in this world is tired... migrate to mars la... some people declare their tiredness... helps them this way... some keep it to themselves... and maybe it helps this way too... so many people to take care of... so many people that cares for u... haven't we heard enough? If only there isn't any expectations... haiz...

ever try not expecting anything at all for like maybe 2 days?

like maybe not expecting to get a sms... or maybe not expecting to have dinner to eat... or maybe not expecting that you wont fall asleep?

wont u be happier when these things happen?

have u tried going out onto the streets giving money to people... and not expecting them to say thanks... or maybe just going around helping people... and not expecting any gratitude... what if they say thanks? do u feel happy?

why cry out loud for pity... every single bit of suffering anyone gets... i would say its their own fault... entirely their own fault... bcos of how they are... tats why that thing happened... and thats why they suffer...

i don't dare to msg her... its just me... i am hurt deep down inside by what she said... i cry out in silence... but whose fault? mine. my own. cos i nv dare msg her...

if i msg her... its just me again... but if she didn't reply... and i get disappointed... whose fault is it? mine again. cos i expected her to reply.

i dun care if anyone reads this... i dun wanna expect anymore. haha... den i come to a point whereby i question myself... shouldnt it be better if i am dead?

when we are young, there's hardly and problem. when we come to an age like this... probs start coming in... and i guess probably 20 years down the road... there wont be much problems again...

from a stage of 'not knowing anything' to a stage of 'slow realisation', then to a stage of 'maturity.' but who can say they can live without friends? What is the purpose of friends? Who are they? What are they for? People whom we pour our sorrows to? People whom we want so that we can feel pitied or sympathised? People who can support us when we are in trouble? or people who are there to screw our asses?

Humans can never understand humans. Everyone is changing and changing and changing and changing and changing and changing and changing and changing and changing...................................................

So what if i say i know you now? The next minute u say smth that i don't quite expect to come from your mouth. Disappointment.

What's important in life? ohhhh so many things..........studies...job....family....friends....helping the people around you...having a positive attitude....blah blah blahh....i think what's very important is yourself. You settle yourself first before you mind other things. You freaking hell go and sort yourself out before you start another of those chain reaction things. ---->i helped you... thank you very much... i got a problem now... help me can? no i dun wanna tell you... what's wrong with you... nothing... (both parties are now sad)

It is really tiring you know?

We are subjected to so many forms of emotions and feelings... that weaker ones get confused... and the stronger ones help the weaker ones... and get influenced in a way or another... and become weaker... what a world manz... haha........

Shun me manz... i've not much of a reputation to say things that are soothing to the ears... anyway i dun think i am much of a good guy oso...

Best scenario---> sit down and play mahjong... get on a field and kick a ball... go and kick some asses in cs... watch a movie... play pool...

There shouldn't be a mouth... so no one can talk... when people talk, things happen... then my hands shouldn't be here too... so i can't type... then there shouldn't be eyes too... so no one can see...

haha wth manz... see... it leads to very bad stuff... it leads to neverending stuff...

so... whats the best thing... think of the good things loh... use your mouth to eat... yeah eating's good... use your hands to grope someone's ass... and use your eyes to see porn...

we will all get through this tough period of time... and when we are like 50 years old... we will look back at these stuff and laugh our asses off...