Sent my laptop for repair. Not back yet. Kind of missed it. Will continue on the updating on the trip once the laptop is back.

Working like fuck in camp these 3 days. So pissed with them for not doing much when i wasn't around. So i came up with this list of things to do and wrote them all down on the board and cancelled like half of them today.

Sometimes recognition of work done is needed.

Felt empty every now and then. And then there are the flashbacks. Like walking up the stairs, looking at the room when i first wake up, looking down the rows of houses onto the road, the kitchen, and especially her face. The clubbing, the walking down shopping malls and streets, the movies, the friends and simply everything that happened. It's very amazing how one's memories could be so clear as though everything just happened yesterday, and then suddenly everything is taken away from me. Back to reality. Back to separation. Back to the waiting game again.

And i've decided i am attracted to blue more than pink or red. I think blue's a cooler colour than either. Like it tends to bring out more of the person.

Suddenly, it all seem very dream-like. Very blurry. Because all the time spent together past by so fast. As though every scene is submerged in a bunch of clouds. Like all that are part of my fantasy and i am mostly living in the real world.

It's so damn scary. Bleah... shouldn't think anymore...