I wonder why there are people who dislike me?

And i don't have an answer.

Because usually it ends up with that person not talking to me and thus vice versa.

So i don't usually get to ask the person for the reason.

I think i go about life rather simply. I enjoy the company of friends, and regarding this, maybe it's a bit wrong but i won't be friends with people who do not reciprocate my friendship.

I told Alison today that i've got enough friends to last me, and if you do not want to be my friend(not her), probably because of some external influences or so, then so be it. If my current friends do not want to be friends with me in the future, then i will go look for new ones.

Perhaps that might sound disappointing to some, but that's how i view friendships as. I don't want to get let down my people anymore, and if you stretch out your hand for mine, i will hold on tightly to yours. If you slap mine away, i can only hold on to my own hand.

Seriously i am be totally nonchalant about this issue after i blog this down. Remember everything needs a closure? I don't care for the reasons why all of you dislike me. Or maybe if you can tell me, i can try to change? Maybe you don't like the way i talk? Or maybe you don't like the way i laugh? The way i walk?

Like what my tutor said, "if you don't like anything about me, you don't have to come for class so that you don't need to waste 2 hours of your life every other week looking at me."

So... maybe you just don't want to see me ever again...

Yeah anyway, i was pretty angsty just now. I thought how rude it was to call people names. Then i thought of how i was doing the same. Or rather i didn't call people names, but i talked bad about them.

Stupid Alison. The Syndroming syndrome is getting to me.

Oh... on a lighter note, remember the post awhile back which i said i felt that after people enterer uni, they seemed to have changed, such that they became more serious and lacking in energy. Yup and i know the reason why... cos i was walking around in school like that. It's the hectic schedule and when you see that all your work is piling up, you will naturally feel that way.

=)