That night, i went to church. It had been a long long time since i went into a church. At least not directly into the church, but we were out at the compound. Sitting on the bench, with the statue of Mother Mary and a big cross in front of us. I prayed. Didn't pray as long as i would like to, because i don't know whether God will be patient enough to listen to all i've got to say. Anyway, i guessed God knew what i wanted to say. A pity i didn't hear any voice or anything then that will convince me. But i guess, this is what they always say... indeed, i felt much more hopeful after that.