I don't put in effort because i don't see a need to prove myself being a store IC. What's so great about it? I don't get the motivation of doing well, when we don't get rewarded for our work and get punished for being garung. Somemore, i don't feel passionate about doing all this.

But...

I am going to force myself to put in effort. I have built up the momentum and i am going to keep it going. I am going to go through all the hassles even they are tedious and so damn gay zhua. I am going to prove it to them.

Maybe it's too late. But maybe they judge too fast.