It happened more than half a year back and it's happening again.

Can i sum it all up by simply saying that MOST 19-20 year old girls think and think and think and think too much and are seriously cannot handle their emotions well AT ALL? They mind too much about what others think, even of themselves.

But anyway if you read it here, don't mind it at all. I know and understand that you are still young. I just don't want to say it in your face because i am nice. Or perhaps i ain't. Perhaps i just expressed myself better sitting in front of a computer. Or maybe i just didn't sort out my thoughts just now and those zombies at Resident Evil kind of helped me.

I am a straightforward person, and you tell me that i must be mindful of others' emotions. If you know me well enough, you know you can't take most of what i say too seriously. Or maybe i should say it in the AK way; if you can't take it, TOO BAD!

Okay maybe i shouldn't just target the female population. This applies to people of both genders who are overly confident of themselves and think that they are larger than the group.

True... you are zai. Your ideas are damn good. They are the ideas that will get you the A.

But good leaders listen.

No matter how zai you are. The more zai you are, the more you should listen. The more zai you are, the more humble you should be. If you don't, you are simply just a egoistic person who is running the show all by yourself.

You changed the script. Who was in charge of it? Yixian, Me, Candy and Cordelia.
You cut me totally out of the video. Did i make a hoohaa about it? NO. Shouldn't i be the one upset?
He told me that i will need to do more for the presentation. I accepted it wholeheartedly.

So why the hell did YOU go upset? Somehow i hate it when people go upset. It's just me. But i assure you this time it's not without reason.

I only told you i made changes to your powerpoint presentation. BECAUSE I AM GOING TO PRESENT. I made changes to the questions and solutions part because i feel that my design layout is better. ALL YOUR POINTS ARE STILL INSIDE.

And you sat there quietly for a few minutes before going outside to cry.

Do all you girls do that?

Somehow it's embarassing for me to ask that question considering my field of study. So much for gender studies eh?

Oh when the shocking stimulant comes in, it isn't logic and reasoning which get into the brain, but instead, fear and negative emotions take over. BLAH BLAH BLAH.

When we were filming last week, i knew you 2 were sian. I know how you both are like in terms of characteristics and personality. Can't allow others to lead for a moment? Can't accept others' ideas? That's why today i went in accepting that i have to take a back role. There cannot be too many leaders in the group. Everyone's leading, who's following?

Maybe one other small reason i can come up with is that i didn't turn up for the meeting on sat, and that prompted me to make lesser decisions in the group.

When we said we are going to film a trailer and its a group project, surely everyone has a part? Cutting me totally out isn't really teamwork you know? AND I FREAKING DIDN'T MAKE A FUSS.

If you are going to do the video, do the presentation and everything else, then what the fuck am i going to do?

I for one, is alright with slacking. Sure i might feel some guilt but if in the first place you told me you are gonna do everything and that i don't need to bother lifting a finger, i will by all means do my best not to contribute at all. Sure why not? All the more time to sleep.

And please, don't EVER complain that you are damn stressed and tired because you've been working so hard. Choices have consequences. =p There's such thing as delegation of work.

For my sake and for everyone's sakes, this is a group project. Make it a learning experience for everyone even if we are not as zai.

Trust me i am not angry, nor dulan. =) (Haha i am damn contradicting la now i realise. If i ask people don't take me too seriously, then writing this will mean i am just sarcastic.) Oh i know. I am really damn chilled. =)

I just need to get this off my mind i guess. No space liao.

Haha speaking of which, Kenneth said something that day that surprised me. I told him what i was thinking about concerning one of the dota matches we played. Then he replied, "Wah you one match also think until so detailed."

I really think a lot about things.