Best friend taught me something yesterday...

I was enlightened yesterday. Maybe not so much as enlightened... because i know this kind of things happen... but what i heard sort of releases this hidden idea... I thought what was needed was just to feel... but she taught me that saying it out indeed isn't all that bad... Then i thought about it... why guys don't usually say these things... is it because of pride or is it because it is just not something a guy would do... haha... then i tried femalizing myself... haha kidding...

It is about love. Thank you all for loving me. I love all of you too. Thank you all for always being there. Thank you all for making me who i am. I promise... that i will go through fire and water for all of you. Love transcends through everything. Through friendships and through relationships. I must say that it is not only liking that i have for my friends, but love. I love my friends. I have feelings for them. I care for them. I want all you to know how much i feel for you. If i cannot put aside my pride as a guy and tell you all of you these, then i ain't much of a friend.

I hate a lot of things. I hate getting disappointed. I hate people not helping me. I hate feeling lost. I hate feeling hurt. I hate confusing stuff. Also, what i hate most, is people feeling and experiencing stuff that i hate.

Different stages in life bring different people into my life. I've lost all contacts with my primary school friends. I have deep regrets for that. They were a bunch of people who gave me so much joy. If there is any chance, i would love to meet them all and perhaps have a cup of tea together. Ever try telling a friend how long you plan to be friends with him? Try doing that... I remember recently i told someone ten years... after that i felt a bit different... sort of like relaxed and stuff and contented... but not exactly totally... so i guess ten years isn't enough... forever will be a better word...

When i was 12, i didn't know i will lose contact with them guys... when i was 16... i know the friends i had would be there with me... but i didn't exactly know how long our friendships will last... i think it is the same for all of them... we just sort of take things one day at a time... but what if... some of us got to go to somewhere really far away... and we just lost contact... but anyway... there's the internet and all the high tech phones now... so no worries manz... but thinking back to 1st 3 months... i think of a few friends... they are people that i would like to be close friends with... but too bad... i lost my phone... i might have lost their numbers... unless they contact me...or unless i purposely go and hunt them down... i might never ever hear from them again...

I didn't know just saying some future plans can be so comforting... that there will always be this hope that these plans are going to be fulfilled... hopefully by you and your friends... this just sort of gives a lot of hope into the friendship... even though all of us could be doing different stuff... maybe even now... some in the army... some like me doing nothing much... some studying... but with a plan in the future... maybe even in the near future... like in june... like going for a holiday together... it sort of brings certainty into the friendships until that period of time... and this certainty is very comforting... who knows what will happen tomorrow... i might have to migrate... i might have other plans... but if a future plan is already made... i promise i will turn up for that...

A song for all of you... play it from your mp3 list if you have it...cmon sing along manz~!!! oh yeah...uh uh... yeah... where is the love~~~ cmon louder~!!

what's wrong with the world, mama?
people livin like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world's addicted to the drama
only attracted to the things that'll bring the drama
overseas ya we tryin to stop terrorism
but we still got terrorists here livin
in the U.S.A, the big C.I.A
the bloods & the crips, and the KKK
but if you only got love for your own ways
then you only leave space to discriminate
and to discriminate only generates hate
and when you hate, then you're bound to get irate
madness is what you demonstrate
and that's exactly how anger works and operates
man ya gotta have love, this'll set us straight
take control of your mind and meditate
let your soul gravitate, to the love ya'll

people killin
people dyin
children hurt and
women cryin
will you practice what you preach
and would you turn the other cheek
father father father, help us
need some guidance from above
these people got me got me questionin
where is the love?
(love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(where is the love the love my love)

it just ain't the same
old ways have changed
new days are strange, is world insane?
if love and peace is so strong
why are there pieces of love that don't belong
nations droppin bombs
chemical gasses fillin lungs of little ones
with ongoin sufferin, as the youth die young
so ask yourself, is the lovin really gone
so I can ask myself, really what is going wrong
with this world that we livin in, people keep on givin in
makin wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
not respectin eachother, deny thy brother
a war is goin on but the reason's under cover
the truth is kept secret, and swept under the rug
if you never know truth, then you never know love
where's the love ya'll? (i don't know)
where's the truth ya'll? (i don't know)
and where's the love ya'll?

people killin
people dyin
children hurt and
women cryin
will you practice what you preach
and would you turn the other cheek
father father father, help us
need some guidance from above
these people got me got me questionin
where is the love?
(love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
where is the love?
(love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(where is the love the love my love)

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
as I'm getting older, ya'll people gets colder
most of us only care about money makin
selfishness got us followin the wrong direction
wrong information always shown by the media
negative images is the main criteria
infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
..
whatever happened to the values of humanity?
whatever happened to the fairness and equality
instead of spreading love we spreadin animosity
lack of understandin leading us away from unity
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin under
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin down
It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin under
gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
now ask yourself

where is the love?
where is the love?
where is the love?
where is the love?
father father father, help us
need some guidance from above
these people got me got me questionin
where is the love?
now sing with me ya'll (one love one love)
we only got (one love one love)
that's all we got (one love one love)
and something's wrong with it
something's wrong with it
something's wrong with the w-w-world
we only got (one love one love)
that's all we got (one love one love)