tired...going to sleep liao....

i am bored....i hope this year will be a good one for me....muz score good good for my As and SAT....and my CCA score oso....

today is a nice day....very nice day....

had a dueting session in council room tis morn...this is one of the closest i seen us together...singing our hearts out....so nice....

nice to see jas oso....hey gal...seems like u haf grown prettier....hahah...

shanghai knights nice oso....

Happy CNY to everyone out there!!

erm...tham....my words are wise????

wahahhaha wait till kenneth hear about it manz....he will be laughing till pengz....

Composition of my words: 99% shit...about 0.5 percent air and 0.5 percent ink...

erm...chun~!!! i miss u~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahah....juz read ur blog...sounds fun.....and dun worry manz...i am still horsing ard....hahaha

anyone game for dinner on mon nite?

who is mr chan and mr wang ar?

i need to give oranges to them.

one recurring point that i want to bring up...

when gals say guys are vain...i do not understand...

it is because i haf heard so many times...from females that when they 1st saw a guy...

and he is messy and does not look nice or good...

they say he cannot make it...

so wad is wrong about us being vain?

damn...juz realised still got a bit of PC to do...tmr muz hand in....

and yay...cny coming~!!! and my hair is too goody...hahhaa...

haha...i am one blissed guy....

wad did i do wrong this time....
its time to learn....really....stop being an extra and start being a loner....

focus...muz stick to my words...

do only the necessary.

Define necessary.

jialat...tmr i can feel is a jialat day...
can feel it in her icq msg...bleah...

If i can make today a day of my own, i will make it peace day.
Every enemy will shake hands with one another and all anger buried.
Every arguements and cold war brought to an end.
How wonderful.

blue. two panels.
i look thru the crack. almost as wide
as 3 persons. each glimpses too fast
humans. five or six of them.
not her. and the shuttle flew past
not the window. match point.
she's gone.

erm....stressful day....haiz...felt so depressed today...havent felt like dat for some time...luckily got the donation card thingie to cheer me up...no more cip for me manz!!! hahaa...80 hrs so easy...
tmr got soccer match...cj vs ji...dunno whether going to watch anot after thinking wad test and hmwk i will haf this whole week....muz go buy bus stamp and also cut my hair...

oh yar....heyaz benny....dunno why so many ppl reading my stuff here....haf a good nite everyone...say hi to me in sch hor....haha....got extra money treat me to drink...nothin to do come fos wif me.....haiz....i need to get past this period fast manz...its feb soon....

yoz....my poor mouse tat has stuck wif me for quite a bit is spoilt...hahah...so now got a new mouse...no more roller liao...so need to click and drag to scroll....

anyway....later going for soccer wif the guys...and tonite gotta complete hardtimes essay...bleah...ms nathan still owes the xmas play ppl a treat...

and cny is coming....need to pack my room...bought a shirt liao...glad to hear mon's a hol....realise i haf been chionging and chionging day in day out...today's the only day which i can slp late...jialat...at this rate i am going...time's not enough...weeks past too fast....not enuf rest...not enuf revision...bleah...=)

oh well...things are going on good for me for those who always ask me how am i....i'm always good la....

oh yar...to dear songyu(i decide to stick to this name cos i think the eng one is abit bimbotic)....=pppp hahaha....paiseh....and ya tat day we guys are really sorry for pissing u off....who can help it when u are so cute...hahah...

too much things happening...and when things happen too fast...too many....time flies too fast.....

end of cac camp today...really hope i can get in for the o2 one....saw how much they enjoyed themselves on the 1st day....envious....

take care everyone....a quote from me....hope it can be a form of signal or wadsoeva to anyone or anything...

"actually everything is very simple...."

still got half a gp essay to do....haiz...poor me.....

hahah....hep b jab....not blood tat came out...but shit....

why so many questions? to ask is to get ignored....

sometimes...things u cannot get....den i think the best solution is to let it go...and aim for smth more achievable...

if its meant for u...it will come back....be happy for her....

no i dun haf a dairy....nor any cows....

found out more about ppl who go clubbing....but again its all assumptions....false until proven. but it does haf it's logic too.

i know why fred pangseh me so many times to go clubbing together liao...cos now i an undergoing the process in which he was going thru last yr....

the point is...'if there is no need for it, there is indeed no need for it. if you haf it already, why bother urself to search for it.'

gotta say this is not a personal attack on anyone or anything. only human's thots.

the mood simply dies out....cos suddenly...u juz realised its nothin much...perhaps juz having some fun....but it sorta turn me off after i think i shudnt haf done the stuff....guilty.
most ppl who go are bored ppl....aimless....lonely....needs accompaniment....needs to find a path to follow....blurred.
wad is the aim of my life?
wad actually is it?
do u feel lost?
are u comfortable in life?
are u living the the max?
are u assured?
u say wadeva frequently whenever u are clueless on life problems?
distraction?

real bad.....really bad.

nothin physically can be done...cos its all in the skull.

Contention i ask for.

tham's site is cool...the things he wrote...funny...hey old guy....time to get married manz....=p

talking to brother juz now and shared a lot of things...her too...

What can a girl do if she likes the guy who doesnt like her?
one ques tat has probably stuck me dozens of times before finally struck me real hard juz now...probably bcos in previous cases i think i couldnt do anything to help....but for brother...and him...i know them both and i was wondering....isn't there anything i can do?

i guess that happens when the girl's expectations are too high. but i haf no solution.

"I stared at her as she smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
I want her to be mine,
but she isn't think of me like that,
and I know it.
Then she said- "I had the best time,thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know that
I dont want to be just friends,
I love her but
I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why."

"At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high
school
years.
This is what it read:
"I stare at him wishing he was mine; but he doesn't notice me like
that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I
dun want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!"
'I wish I did too...' I thought to myself, and I cried.
if somebody told u i was jus an ordinary person
wivout a care in e world,well,somebody lied.
with great powers comes greater responsibilty.
dis is my gift.dis is my curse."

and i read in straits times today...home section...sometime which is deeply touching...showed bro and she nodded...i take that as enlightenment.
i try as much as possible to write wad i haf saw there...."romance is about having the courage to tell the person u like he/she even though u might be rejected but yet u still go ahead and ask bcos of ur instincts." - by tat guy who climbed mt everest

still remembered clearly the time at marina sq basement carpark....forced myself to press the send button on my phone....the next seconds u can see me jumping about as if i see smth yucky...almost as if its some mushy stuff....

true. it takes a lot of courage.

one thought. juz now while talking...a dilemia somehow struck me....i was thinking perhaps its alright to share everything wif brother...really as in everything....every secrets tat kinda thing...like how i tell fred they all....but...
perhaps i was tired
perhaps i still wasnt so comfortable
u know this kinda frenships take time and courage....

i will say in cj i haf none....koh calls me a loner...rubin too....they are indeed good frens...but do not truly understand me as much i suppose...it takes time...but i dare to loudly say i am not affected...cos i know i've got real frens...good brothers ard who will do anything for me..(even though i didnt ask them to la...) hahah...deep down i know as long as they are around...i dun care wad i do to portray myself to others....cos i am contented...satisfied...wif the ppl ard me...and when i am spending time wif these ppl....its bliss....i can actually feel the warmth....

the familiar faces....

how matured we haf grown...

another thing i found out....bout myself.....if in a case of a lighted candle....i only burn....i dun light up much.....only when i light for a need....
somehow i dun understand myself as much...perhaps really i am a bad leader...tats why i dun really haf the motivation...but initiative perhaps yes...but the will the start smth is minimal....take this as a comparison btwn human relationships....

i am who i am...tats the basic
i will treat u as how i am....perhaps there are 2 diff ends of treating the ppl i like and the neutral ones...
but perhaps if u treat me like dat....i will treat u back like dat too....tat somehow adjust u in my eyes...
an example....u share things wif me....no problem....i will definitely tell u things if u ask....
but even so...if u share things wif me..and do things which i dun like...i most probably wont share much...

very simple....indeed....if all i see u crapping and full of shit wif me...tats how i suppose i shud be as to u as well....but if u crap yet tok to me about serious stuff...problems which u want me help....i will do the same....full of shit wif u and oso ask u for advice about problems....

oh ya...got econs to study for....new week starting...scary how 2 weeks fly by so fast....but i was expecting it....told jiang... b4 u know it...it will be 50 days to prelims rather than 240 days....

thanks ne ne for her guyish advice too....

haiz....
i am one mojo-depleted fellow.

nite cycling last nite wif jiang, sean, nic and trina...shannon met us over at his house...went chomp chomp for sting ray and sugar cane...den back to trina's house...slp over....been raining non stop...match wif damien's frens was cancelled....came home juz now...took a bath...sleepy liao....

haha back to playing badminton again....got not bad j1s....

okie right now i will love to go and slp....but i got notes to copy...econs tys to do....lit essay to prepare...

now the council guys are mad about bridge....hahaa....

sometimes....i really need to be assured....

=) i hope my kids dun spot me wif their future-laobu anywhere.....wahahaha....

aiya....juz wait and see la....heez...

hmm...juz curious...

me, sy, ong bu, marc, vince, rayner, eugene, fe, fred, zhiqin, xucun, ber, wf, yh, dunrui, yaohong

tze wee, yongda, weiming, damien, joneson, samuel, zhijian, zheming

irrfann, prem, cedric

ok la...20 smth....

how i wish i could share the wonderful week i had wif everyone...but i am really too tired to type everything out....too many thoughts....too many activities....

any impt stuff...i will sure update here....

juz now went marina bay eat steamboat...june's farewell gathering....so nice to see her again....and i think i wrote a lot of crap inside the card for her....and the best thing is....all of us...10 of us la...ate a meal of 120 bucks...including ms nathan....and blur her...forgot whether she got pay anot...den jesse and elvyn psycho her until she thot she got paid....but after we left and go play pool....den i found out tat we nv really pay much...except perhaps for the few jugs of beer...well...i guess the food are complimentary....

outta soccer team now...cos i've been missing too many trainings....cant help la...wif orientation and stuff....so now my R pts all depend on badminton liao....still need to get A and S pts...which is extremely hard....hope i can hit 60 hrs cip.....got 1 E pt from xmas play liao...den i think going to get another one from the orientation camp coming up....

juz got my SAT scores...lousy manz....1160...going to retake of course....the eng part damn lousy....but i beat 88% of those who took eng....ahha...but i think tat shud be quite lousy considering my score...so i think got a lot other more ppl haf gotten 90+%....hahaha....damn manz....realised i wasnt prepared enough....

late at nite....havent been online for sometime...busy wif lotsa stuff....looking at the dates...1 whole week in fact....so many things....done....whew....250 days to prelims...

whoa manz...it was super laggy juz now.....until i quit irc....hahaha

i am very positive now. =)

PhaNtasM> anhong
PhaNtasM> u got do geog?
aNhOnGgGg> erm...
aNhOnGgGg> trying sia
aNhOnGgGg> can lend me tmr? or tues?

usual phrase i am using this few days....

"There are three words in the English language that end with "gry." One is hungry and the other is angry. What is the third word? Everyone uses this word every day, everyone knows what it means, and knows what it stands for. If you have listened very closely I have already told you the third word."

"If you read the second sentence you see that the "third" word is "hungry." By the time the puzzler made it to the internet, passed on by people who received the original wording as above but failed to solve it, the precision of the wording changed so it would be impossible to solve. Pretty silly, no?"

Angry and hungry are two words that end in '-gry'. There are three words in the English language. What is the third word? Everyone knows what it means and everyone uses it every day. Look closely and I have already given you the third word. What is it?

The answer is 'language'. The key sentences are the second and third. If you just read those two, the answer is obvious. The first sentence is a ruse to throw you off. 'Language' is the only answer that fits the hints that follow those two sentence.

Sometimes, i just hope i don't have so much to do. So people, please be glad if i am there with you. It means that one of the things that i have to do is to be with you.

dunno why my winamp loves to play ah du - ta yi ding hen ai ni...

really tired after 3 days of O1...

3 things i leant:
-stop treating the J1s like kids
-i am not good in handling groups
-i am much more effective in handling 1 to 1 situation

decided not to go out and buy the face paint and hair spray cos not feeling very good....still gotta come up wif a few more cheers....really really hope fusion will respond well tmr....

read thru the slorr and flyndance story again cos someone sent to me...pretty overwhelming i admit...

To: my dearest daughter and son

I am afraid that your lao pa mei2 yong4. However, i will still try my best to get you a lao bu asap.

Yours lovingly,
Lao peh

i really cannot take the huge pressure of the looming geog assignment manz.....it is really really dreading me...when i juz think of it....i become damn pek cek....haiz....why muz there be hmwk....no time now loh....and i may be even skipping organ this sat....fark manz...but seriously i prefer dancing....

today's orientation was okie....was kinda surprised by myself...during ice breakers and stuff....well...i dunno my performance la...but i guess u cannot be someone shy or who dun dare to speak up....erm....after tat stayed back for dance till 6 when they chased us out...the new stuff is really hard....i know it la...everyone got a bit of prob coping wif it...so we only learn like 6/8....and its like wtf...but we got a bunch of not bad dancers...sean learnt pretty fast today sia....

haiz....some ppl's hearts are juz not there to lead.....sad to say la....

i cant possibly be guarding the front gate and playing O1 games at the same time rite....neither can i be guarding the hostel gate and be ushering the j1s for registration at the same time rite....

haiz....speaking truly from the bottom of my heart...i think the programming for O1 can be much much better...a lot of problems from my pt of view....

tired and drained...still waiting for an ans...maybe i shudnt be slping now....but i aint...trying to make O1 easier and more organised for me...

Merry new year everyone!!