today run 2.4 km....timing was 11.14....not bad lah...quite pleased.....

That's My Meh Donner

How to order so tat those auntie auntie can understand wat the heck are u toking bout...

What u want: How u pronounce it:
Big mac meal Mee mare mew
French Fries Flench Fly
Filet O'Fish Feesh Burger
Chicken McNuggets Meh Narget
Big Breakfast Bee Blare Fers
Hot Cakes Whore cakes(i like this manz)
Orange Juice Or Leng Joo
Apple Pie Apper Pai
Upsize Up Sai

"to haf reach the state of 'i am willing to do ANYTHING for him/her', the person is either TOTALLY in luv wif the other half, which is highly impossible, or he/she has lost his/her senses, or ermz....his/her sense of direction??"
Haiz....how i wish i got a chance to reach tat state....its SO.............fun?? or shld i say really really indescribable......

"the thot of her will send him into a frenzy...he cannot wait to impress her....he hopes
to reach stage 10(refer to table below)....but he gonna take it slowly and patiently...."

Stage 1: Dunno each other at all....of course wad....or else u call stage 1
Stage 2: Heard of the person...dunno frm whu lah...juz someone....
Stage 3: Begin to get interested
Stage 4: Ask bout the person....but only bout general things
Stage 5: Ask for detailed info bout the person
Stage 6: (hehe)Smsing starts
Stage 7: Tok on the phone loh...still got wat
Stage 8: Go out liao lahz....u think wad...still mbing at home ar....
Stage 9: Go visit house....tok bout lots of personal stuff.....knows practically everything bout the other person(haha....i like this stage)
Stage 10: HeHe!! *GrinZ* WaD tHE fUcK dO U tHiNk lEhZ??

today is mon....tml is eric bday....happy bday to him....later going to causeway again to get sth fer him....ong bu and yifai share wif me...actually they wanted more pple to share...den i not quite happy....its like pple treat u dinner....den 4 pple go....den they only treat u the servings of 1 person....haiz...nvm oso....but den dunno whether eric got ask me to go....he dun seem to be very song wif me...dunno laRz...its my senses again.....its goes mad sumtimes....like spider man's.......tml i will call him....ask him lor..if he dun wan me to go...den i pass him the present on wed....to weefong: i tok cocking again....actually wanted to get 'sth u really wan' for u...u know me onez....dunno lahz....juz feel like being xtra....but den really not sure....scare probably....scare tat cock things up again....but den its like if i haf ur total trust hor...i believe i will do it.....nuthing much lah....dun ask me wad hor...aiyah i tell u now lah...its to get u a condom...SURPRISE rite....wow!~

juz finish tuition.....done quite alot on maths and chem....and i think lao pei quite bui song of me going nline for so long....haiz....wad can i do....luv my mum...luv my dad....luv my sis oso....luv my dickie oso....whahahha!!!!

uh....today's sunday....yest sleep at 12 plus....woke up at 9 today....not bad....den haf to study for maths later....cos tonite got tuition...den really cannot do anymore smsing....i haf this nervous feeling tat i gonna exceed by quite alot...call time oso....cos juz now tok on the phone for 3 mins plus for some crapz...den now total call time display 2 hrs plus.....fuckz manz.......now d/l human nature songs....found them to be quite nice....

discover a mistake in my blog...the blog tat i wrote sunday is actually for saturday....sorrie

Sunday, 9.44am

today wake up 8 plus...by lao bu lah...still very tired....dunno lar.....but got msg frm nic...dunno wat she trying to say....den i return sth i oso dunno wat i trying to say....she stll haven reply yet....mebbe dunno wat to reply....actually wanted to go watch a movie or sth in the noon....but dunno who to find...den thot of going alone...i think go watch 'it isnt so'....looks quite nice leh...aiyah.....but dun feel like going out...still got arrangement to do and still got quite alot... fuck manz....stress sia....and its only the first arrangement, haf to do 2 leh...die liao...den mon i think still maths test...differentiation rite??now think i gonna go do some work...hmmz....wat can i do leh......

sumtimes think i rely on this thing too much....nvm lah...whu cares

"Step into my life 'cause i am waiting here
Help me to survive 'cause i need u near
Get here if u can--Just no matter--Fly run or drive
Come on and step into my life

All the flowers fade without u
And i dream in black and white 'cause u're not here
so cross tat line--Give me a sign
'Cause snowflakes fall tat time when u appear"

'to be satisfied is the greatest source of happiness'
-someone

tody got pa pool and cs at redhill....owe yh 3 bucks in the end....but not bad...considering i played like 6 games???den today dunno wat to say....want to say but juz didnt ask....nvm....mebbee its better not to bother anymore....take care guys.....

yihhuat arh.....i got sth tell u.....next time if u see me...remind me to tell u....

i dunno wat the hell is wif me...i juz wanna be alone...mebbe its bcos i think i can survive better.....nobody getting into ur way....i really dunno how u think....and the only way is to tell u everything straight from my heart...but den u always get pissed off by it...well...wad can i do....haiz....THINK....

i've got lots to say.....but i dunno wat to say....cos i know wat i say u oso wont listen....i am nuthing wat...i am juz a rebellious freak....wat can i do....i am so chi jie....wat i really wan to say...' I FORBID U TO DO TAT!!!U CANT DO ANYTHING LIKE TAT!! NO!!!' but in the end....haiz....wat can i say.....yf say i am so blunt...tats me wat...i would rather say rebellious....i dun gif a fuck bout ur gender....everyone's the same....den i really wonder whether u think bout the god damn consequence.....but all i can say is he wont mind...but tats my prediction....after wat he told me...i assume lah...really manz....all i can say is wad the fuck.....

till juz now....i finally realise wat i say is wrong....mebbe no best fren.....but everyone's my best fren.....cos i like to be alone....really alone....sorrie fred....i gonna treat everyone the same....and to everyone....i luv u guys......

i like to be alone--wo xi huan zi ji yi ge ren
i luv to be alone--wo ai gu du
i want to be alone--wo yao gan dao ji mo
if u miss my presence--lu guo ni xiang nian wo
i will oso miss urs--wo ye hui xiange ni
but if u take me for granted--lu guo ni ba wo dang zhe bai chi
i will oso do the same--wo jiu hui bu guan ni
to be alone--zi ji yi ge ren
i will feel no problems--wo bu hui you ren he wen ti
how i wish i know no one--wo how xi wang wo sui dou bu ren shi
u may say i will feel lonely--ni ke neng hui suo wo hui gan dao ji mo
but i feel tats better--wo ji ke yi jiang na hui bi jiao how
i still like to be alone--wo hai shi xi huan gu du

well....today's wed...tml is chi mid yr exam......i think i am quite prepare for it....hope for the best...wish me luck too....den today i might as well dun go to sch....no lesson at all....except mebbe the shi jian bu dao le....haiz....gotta go sleep now to be in the best condition for tml exam....good nite dear blog....

PPLE PLS THINK WHY I TYPE SO MUCH....MY REASON ON TYPING ALL THIS THINGS...

to Eunice: read ur blog...and yes i may be blind...but so wat?!? its my own opinion and my decision.....u go ask ber why his best fren is yih huat...and ask urself why serene used to be ur best fren....u know sth...i once declare tat i haf no best fren cos everyone's my greatest pals...pple haf say i am nobel bcos of it...i had say siao...cos i think tats normal instead...why be bias to choose someone to be the best when u can treat everyone the same way.....mebbe wat i say bout fred being a good fren is juz a moment of chong dong...mebbe its not true for the future....but rite now is true and i hope to carry on wif it.....and u know sth....to be trap between two enemies is indeed very cruel....i treasure abel as much as everyone....but den now pple are forcing me to gif it up.....get a best fren....criticise pple....kao pei them....fuck them... all the crap....and oso must act the bad guy and be damn rebellious...why shld anyone haf the edge over u and take me for granted juz bcos i am the good guy....i dunno

the bottom 5 logs are all linked up....i only separate them cos cannot post such a long blog at one time....

24th April, tues, 6.14pm....i got lots of things to sae...

to all of u out there...too bad none of the pple in the group reads any of the blogs around...or else they MIGHT say different things now......U ALL haf absolutely no right to critcise pple behind their backs....still form small groups claiming all of u haf the same view.....den giving UR OWN AND PERSONAL opinions and ideas bout others...u think u so great ar!!!! unless u are god or someone totally enlightened or someone who is PERFECT...u haf NO right to tok so much crap bout others....of course all of u now may be thinking wat right i haf to say all this...all i can say is its all my personal views oso..u can choose not to read or watsoeva...i can only say those who think u are so damn great are oso damn hum jis...dun dare to tell tat person face to face ar??haf to gather in groups and influnce each other....u know sth..influnce can kill...now i gif u some time to think...juz think lah...bout wat i say...den i gonna continue...THINK HOR...I DUN WISH TO TYPE ALL THIS OUT FOR NUTHING...but i believe after this a lot of pple will say i tok cock and even hate me more...think.........................................................

...........................uh huh.....think of hitler lah...he control pple's mind by influncing them....but think of it...IS THERE A NEED FOR IT??its juz bcos he WANNA GAIN POWER...to be the best....in order to do so....he need to degrade the rest.....so wat right haf u to say bad things bout others???criticise so much....think u are so perfect ar??kao pei so much oso....its only others didnt want to say anything.....why shld i bother to say bad things bout others when i know i am worse than them....once u say anything bad bout anyone...u are worse than them.....den why so HUM???dun dare to tok face to face ar???and why u care so much...its others life wat....care bout ur own first lah.....cos i think its very lanz.....i ask u....WHY U CARE SO MUCH??? the more u care...the more miserable u make tat person....trust me....and to manfred...i written sth for u at somewhere at the bottom part of this log...its really wat i feel....pple who dun care tat much dun criticise and thus nuthing happen.....pple kaopei so much u oso care....pple got gf u oso care....pple dumb u oso care....pple dun say anything then u TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED....limits exist....u know why u care....cos u all think u are the best.....theres no hope for those lousy ones....u gonna say things to degrade them or hurt them...thus they are not in the best condition to compete wif u......pple....THINK AGAIN....SLOWLY....PLEASE................................................i am god damn pek cek now....why do i care so much...u may ask.....cos tats me....uh huh....den u all will start saying u do those things bcos tats u....but trust me manz...i nv do any of those things on top unless i do them on purpose which means to gao xiao....haiz...pple will den say i tok cock so much again.....mebbe tats wat i seem to be in their mind....3 plus yrs...wat serious things haf i done....all i haf do i act cute...gao xiao....and fool around...but u know why..cos serious things cause pple to lose their mind...cant everyone tok cock around....fool around.....why care so much bout wat u feel for others.....dun need tell out oso....and dun need care....it juz makes everything worse...pple reading this who thinks i tok cock sing song....fooling around as usual cos u think u really know me....u are the ones who are causing all those things to happen........

ber...i am slightly disappointed wif u today....bout wat u say....and i believe abel and ber will oso say they are disappointed wif me....cos i finally found my best fren....after 3 plus yrs.....and tat is manfred.....i suppose i know him quite a bit.....manfred wont think so lahz....but den at least he keeps quiet...at least he scolds me to fuck off when i irritate him....at least he kao pei me when he dun like wat i doing....at least he you hua zhi suo.....noy like some guys who even dun dare to scold someoe face to face...only scold when u got the support of others....yes majority rules lah...i know tat....but the fren whom i am looking for...those who dun care bout others life....those who dun think a heck bout others weaknesses.....meebe got lah.....but NOT AS MUCH AS SOME OTHERS THINK......all i am saying here....u can regard as sth tat is really really true or as crap....

tomolo will be tomolo.....everything will be diff again.....UNLESS soneone reminds me of anything concerning this...and i will really get piss off....cos i am god damn pissed off now.....u all can care bout this nuthing tat i wrote here....but from wat i feel adn exp wif the class....i suppose more pple will say i tok cock den anything...wad can i do???haiz........but i really hope pple will understand....which i feel again is of very little chance...all these things is i feel one hor....not some statement or fact tat i am making.....so its regarded as feelings....and my final statement...i am not perfect.....so i suppose i dun haf the rite to kp u all.....but i am damn fucked up now.....sorrie hor guys.....if i got de zhiu anyone of u...i juz gotta apologise....u haf the rite to choose ur decisions....and i haf to remind u tat i am not god or wat....mebbe its juz the pressure nowdays....i am juz feeling so bui song now......haiz...guys....'juz dun bother'....

u guys juz WAIT AND WATCH...see if any of wat i say comes true....if its does...tell me hor....sometimes as pple gets too close...bad things happen....cos 'that kind' of pple will start comparing them...and due to pressure...both of them will do all kinda things to harm the other half....UNLESS...both of them simply know each other....and when i say know..meaning really know....and if tat is the case....nuthing will be able to affect their relationship...wad pple say....do will NEVER affect them....cos they DUN CARE.....being able to care is good on the outside....u will say care for others means think of them and wanna to inform them of any thing wrong tat they had done....but den it will really result in pple being displease wif each other cos they cannot accept wat the other half says....they always thot themselves to be the best....so WHY CARE...NO CARE=NO WORRIES=PEACE=SATISFACTION AMONG ALL=WAT I ALWAYS WANT.....but why bring the whole thing up when there is no need to....IT WILL JUZ CAUSE PPLE TO BE BUI SONG WIF ONE ANOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!! u all juz sit back and think of the past lah....is wat i say true....u are juz gotta think harder........and so why shld i type all this out......cos I WANNA GET THIS WHOLE BUNCH OF CRAP AND NONSENSE OFF MY CHEST........IF NOBODY CARES....WHY SHLD ANY OTHER PERSON CARE?? TAKE NOTE OF MY LAST SENTENCE......and the 3 words in bold...i really really hope not one take it tat i am joking or toking cock juz bcos u cant understand.....juz try to think harder...pls

ermz......today pass quite fast....think bcos sally didnt come...den sleep thru tat period...think i drool or sth....cos the pe t-shirt i lying on wet wet.......after sch refer to the maths hmwk...den after tat go causeway bk eat and study...mata come and those guys smoking outside god bless them manz....god bless me oso...3 days away from chi mid yr....haven study finish....even if study finsh oso not very clear....haiz.....haf to try my best....
to tw: u dun need always tell me u xtra....cos i seldom feel tat way...juz try to cope wif it lahZ...

this song sent by eunice to me keep on playing on my com....cos only got this song in this com...

We are the champions, my friends
and we will keep on fighting to the end
We are the champions
We are the champions
No time for losers
cos we are the champions
of the world...

reminds me of the season 1998/1999 when man u won the treble....

why does everyone always don understand wat i am doing...haiz....is communication tat bad....or wat...or are they always so suspecting.....dunno also...why bother...

whoa....yh arh....those are crap lah....u actually bother reading them....hahahha...i only nuthing to do den i write them lah....

juz finish tution 1 1/2 hrs ago...den done some maths and chem...time now is 11pm....after this going to sleep liao...quite a nice day...study quite a bit....slept quite a bit oso...

i got type some stuffs in chinese....those cannot see den too bad loh...open some fucking prog to see loh...

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juz dwld 2 songs from tauwen....stan and thnk you....sounds not bad.....eminen damn funnie....den today gotta do tonnes of things manz..chem and maths test tml...chi compo....maths bino ws...and tonite got tuition.....sian...ΪʲûÄØ£¿this week lucky num is 8 and lucky colour is silver...ËùÒÔjuz change my hp cover back to the silver one...»ªÎÄ¿¼ÊÔ is on thurs...gotta pia manz....cya guys.....:p

whoa....fred actually understand crimson river when its a damn fuck cheem show....its plot is actually not very good loh...only the grossly things they displayed are cool...why shld the ger turn out to be twins in the end and why would she start killing pple....crazieee manz...

"Beautifully you appear from the horizon of heaven
Oh living Aten...Oh sole god, without another beside him!
You create the Earth according to your wish...
You are in my heart,
and there is none who knows you except yourself."

today's Satuday...went to sch in the morn for chem remedial...today wang teach electrolysis...not bad lah...learn quite a lot of things...ber, marc and fred came too...den after tat we went mac eat brunch...marc, rayner and fred went pa pool after tat, me and ber went causeway popular buy books... after tat reach home play smkdwn2 till 1 plus...den i turn pig...slept till 4.45pm...not bad lah...so tonite plan to study till quite late...mebbe ard 2am...uh huh...got chem and chinese...enuf to last the whole nite...tml den study maths...haven receive a single sms the whole day...sianded manz...why must always take the initiative...cant others be more zhi dong...mebbe they don bother...haiz...whu cares...its actually better this way...save on cost and can concentrate on studying....

to anyone out there: whu is willing to keep me company tonite?? i think ong bu can rite??whole day sleep so late...mebbe till 2 plus...anything lahz...coz veri sian...juz sms me...its good to feel tat someone is ard....

i cant explain the unexplainables
i cant describe the undescribables
i cant think the unthinkables
i cant believe the unbelievables
i cant feel when i am not feeling
i cant sense when i am senseless
cos i am brain-dead.......................

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juz came back frm town...wif ber and tw juz now....rite now totally sei....aftnoon play soccer for more than 3 hrs...den juz now go watch movie...crimson river...the show was a total cheem show...so damn complicated...but den seeing cut-off arms and various body parts immersed in alcohol...whoa total cool...den dunno why nobody in dawson'screek....haiz...sianded...waiting for livewire to start...

walking along the staright path
i became fully aware of the situation
my brain is almost total dead
and i am almost senseless
but livewire brings me on
waiting for it after my bath
i choose to watch terminator rite now
sianded....

another song...tuneless oso...lyrics only...but den not exactly tuneless...but den after all i am juz blabbering away...

'Enlightened'

i saw u thru the looking glass
u seemed so real yet not the same
there u are...standing by my side
its ur smile tat melts me totally

but i believe i am toyed wif again
the feeling so hard to deal wif
the soul and the spirit
i could and nv will understand
unless i am enlighten...

oh the light burns so ever strongly
the flame of old nv dies
yet i could not feel the warmth any more
mebbe its u...
pls enlighten me....

the direction to lead me on
something to guide u towards
the lite...the flame
it shld be allow to die
unless i am....
enlighten...

heyz i wrote a song..always does tat when i got nuthing to do...it goes sth like this:

'not a chance'(tuneless cos haven find the correct one yet)

the happening...on dat day
and dun ask me why
when i saw u... u seem so real
and the look u gave me was almost true
u nv told me wat u felt
the bit of trust and respect i hoped to haf
but all tat i suppposed was a dream
when i finally woke up

u nv gif me any chance
and not even a single chance
the thots i had b4...
the memories of all...
but u nv....gif me a single chance...

the turn of everything
the looks of all the things
but it seems to me
finally i haf realise tat
not a chance at all...
not a single chance at all...

read all the others blog...not much updates....but to seifer: relax lah...why bother to get involve in another war when u haf squall to contend wif....

today...19th of April....time is 10.05pm....juz ended tuition 1/2 hr ago...learn bout organic chem today...not bad for a day either....except for the stupid stomachache....actually studying hist now...nut kinda sianz...dunno why hitler so free...start a war like free one likdat...hehe...anyway he quite pityful oso...1 ball...haiz...den went to sch today and saw someone familiar.. think i mebbe saw her wif sean loh or sth...dunno lahz...physics test a bit the hard...den during chinese yang lao bei was like 'shi jian zhen de bu gou le'...den bu yao ya ya thing oso came... hahhaa!!! he make it sound so farnie...but honestly lah...must really take this god damn seriously...mid yr comin in one week time...uh huh...den abel got this SL 45 from this other 4-2 guy...seems to be not bad...the phone...i like the mp3 manz...after sch go home wif ber, abel, fred and luk...


to fred: dun say anything and nuthing will happen...the more u try to do things...the worse it will seems....

to wee: juz saw ur topic....mmz...love is an ENGLISH word lah...duh...den u are welcome too fer thankewing me....

to yh: Squall RuleS...!!! YeAh MaNz!!!

to keith: relax lah...no one is telling u to run...

to fred: trust someone...

to nic: yeah manz!!! KILL GOD!!!

to nic: yeah manz!!! KILL GOD!!!

mmz...today nuthing much...except very sleepy...during history going to sleep liao..and its
only the second period...ZzZz...den early recess today manz...hahaha...i almost can imagine
those guys in claz seeing us go for recess 10 mins earlier....after sch went P.S. wif fred,
eric, huat and vince...den nuthing much lorZ..sianded...juz now watch who wans be millionaire
tat faizal guy must haf fail his geo...even cannot ans wat is the earth outer solid layer..
i was there shouting 'CRUST!!!CRUST!!'den he still call his sis...den damn farnie...haven even
ans the ques den times up...hahahha....waste one lifeline like free one....den rite now studying
for physics the time is 9.23pm...haven receive any sms yet...den radio playing end of the road...haiz...
todays hmwk maths d dunno how to do...on the table now...looking very dead...going to rain soon
tonite will be a long nite... hopes man u win tml morn...mmz...3 plus...mebbe wake up watch..
den juz now postpone my tuition...very tired and oso dun see the need to when i can study physics.
PERIOD.

today english claz saw one phrase: if i feel nothing at all, i ceased to be human...hmmz..cheem

i miss u...i miss u...i miss u...i miss u...i miss u...i miss u...

try out jeff hardy juz now...his swantom bomb not as powerful as matt's twist of fate...den his kicking a bot the guai lan...like Y2J one....matt still rulz...even though his recovery not tat good....

to everybody: from this moment onwards...i will tok nuthing bout life unless needed...cos life's back to normal...time to tok lame shits again....hehehe...hey bunrui...didnt mean to suan u but today in com lab...haiz...HOW COULD U??? WEI SEN MO??? her bf sitting behind u only u still....haizZz....and great manz...next thurs is chi mid year....after tat got eng exam...den after tat 1 whole mth to learn new things b4 entering the 'pia-until-siao' month....which is the june holidays....whoa ho!! Holidays manz!!!
today quite usual sch day...but woke up in the morn wif running nose....den reach sch i suppose they solidfy or sth...my nose became blocked....den during maths sleepy sia....cos sally tee teach very slow...until the end den she speed up....den after sch play soccer...haf to wait for dunno how long b4 the sec 3s clear the court....quite funz...not badx loh...den rayner got hit in the face...den some1 zham fredie's balls...hiyo...kick one ball end up zham three balls....

to Sally Tee(if she ever sees this): u seem so nice during remedial and when handling students who are weaker...today in sch...manfred was oso saying u yong xin liang ku....the whole hand full of ink....really manz...i think u are a great teacher as long as u dun pms....

to Eunice:....nvm lah...try harder next year....not bad oso...semis lehz....:)

to manfred: i didnt say a single piece of shit bout u causing yifai having a black face the whole of yest.....i was saying those things tat made yf not happy was during mmc and bout the pammy thing....den i didnt even say anything bout u...its u who yi xing yi gui....relax lah....u ask me why wat...so i tell u the reasons...haiz..

and the whole day u all saying the class is splitting up...so u like tat to happen lah....and i wonder whose side is jing zhong on...and whose side is ryan on...i am really impress by the far-sightedness of u guys....impressive manz.....actually hor...juz to think of it...its juz a few guys whos making this thing seems to be so complicated....and they are those implying alot of things...including me oso...i am not gotta shift any blame....somebody going to kp me again for sure....haiz....whu cares if the claz is splitting...we are still going to sch everyday and sleeping every nite....gotta see everyone everyday oso....den why bother to predict anything even b4 anything happens...make everything so troublesome and complicated......haiZ

to yifai again: juz thot of the phrase tat i wrote down there.....dun get influnce by wat u are reading...heyz...i am actually influencing him manz.....cos if i dun say this...sombody juz will kp me again...

really must watch my words cos everyone thinks they are better than the rest....i oso think so...so its kinda hard to do things loh...u know bout the prev few blogs tat i say bout everyone being equal and not wanting to be better than others....its really sth tat is impossible to happen....but i hope for...den u all will think i toking cock again...cos hope as if got use...aiyah...trust ur senses...i always do tat...( i sense u all are thinking tat i toking crap again and u know why...cos cock is always worse than words full of meaning...)and u all juz think tat u are better....tats life lah....i oso think tat way so i cant blame u all.....when everybody thinks they are better....trust dissolve between them....

u know the story told today rite....bout the rose and its thorns....cant all of u think of the others GOOD POINTS...i am sure tat isnt very hard....when u think of each other's good points...u respect them and TATS WHEN TRUST COMES IN....(i really can sense tat some pple are juz thinking i am toking cock) nvm....its still the same old word...

to yifai: TRUST US(u know who)!!!! dun get influnce by wat u are reading.........

after seeing fred's latest blog...gotta say sth again...i nv think it was easy to do wat i say...but bcos of pple who thinks tat its so hard...it makes the whole thing impossible to do...aiyah....ask around the world lah....who else at other place doesnt encounter all this....why make such a big fuss bout everything huh?? ermz...i oso dunno...mebbe theres nuthing to tok about....and wad the hell....when u HAVE NEVER DONE TAT THING B4 AND HAF NV EXP IT B4...U ARE JEALOUS....cos u know why...we are human...and tats life....oh...too bad....one ans is enuf to ans every single one of u whu has been typing bout these things(including me)...u know wat...and tat is: TATS LIFE....juz think of it lah...think deeply....

fred wrote: they dun even wan to tell wad has happened...so as u can see the level of trust among us in claz nowadaes...
i say: whu do u refer to as among us???i dun see the prob btw me, ber and yh and sumtimes yifai....ITS U PPLE WHO ARE CREATING ALL THIS THINGS...i can tell u after i posted this...a lot of them will write back to kp...and why??? bcos tats life...everyone thinks tat they are the best and they are always correct...i of course oso thinks this way...juz wait and see....someone will rite back...and i juz gotta rite sth back cos tats life...everyone's got their own views....AND JUZ THINK OF WAT I HAF SAID...(nobody will think...trust me)........ is it true???

to ong bu:saw ur blog...nuthing much...its juz a gal after all.........

to seifer:relax....u know him so long liao...den why bother...wanna pull punches...shld haf done it earlier....or rather...pull punches wif me...long time didnt fight liao

to manfred: sometimes when u do things...u didnt realize it juz sort of irritate others...den u say pple pull fucked up face for the whole day...ever thot why they do tat...juz think of the mmc and the pammy thing....

after reading ong bu's blog yest...got sth to tell him....there is no need to kp so much tat u haf change unless the change is good....kp so much to let the whole world knoes tat u haf change for the better is definitely sth u shld do...but den if for the worse...why make so much noise...unless u are displeased wif urself for changing to sth not as good as b4...(its all in a friendly tone...dun be mistaken my the words...)

yay....today i master matt hardy liao....come come...whu wanna qie me in smkdwn???my matt hardy damn pro leh.....mebbe its juz the twist of fate....Zhiqin...u hear me???

to vince: can u tell me everything bout wat u say in sch...bout the hp case...i really dunno anything....pls...its like u are telling me things tat i dunno of...and wat do u expect me to say....but den if theres anything tat u wanna do juz tell me....

to everybody out there: if u want me to do ANYTHING....juz tell me in person...and as long as i can do it...i will try my best to do it....but dun expect me to guess wat u want me to do by not saying anything...if i assume the wrong things can be damn malu leh....

to my friend weefong: told u in sch today tat i gonna tell u sth in my blog...really hard to say...but i juz wanna say i told kelly bout ur blog...i SINCERLY believe it will help...trust me....really....but den if after this u feel tat i haf done the wrong thing...u can beat me up or kp me or do anything....as long as the thing is i do...i take the responsibility....i believe those who read this will kp me in sch tml....those are definitely not those tat i am saying in the blog below....cos my frens will nv do anything of tat sort...but u can pull me to one corner and tell wat u gotta say...if u think its wrong and wish me to change...i will try..but den its like wat i usually do is wat i think is correct...those who knows me will understand wat i toking bout--stubborn boy:)

my defination of friendship: 2 pple together who can trust each other whole heartedly and who can accept each other views cos they are frens....everything which is said between them are always understood by the other 1/2.....
my defination of frens: pple whu is in ur life...whu make an impact in ur life by making a difference...a good one indeed...pple whom u can tok to...pple who dun make u embarassed and angry....cos they got the idea of those feelings and they are definitely not nice....they gif u the god damn piece of respect needed and the whole group of u juz do the same to each other...no selfishness among them and everything is SHARED among them...cos everyone respects each other...There is no need for competition to be the best unless its in study or games....

dear blog:
i finally found another best fren...its u..my dearest blog....i can tell u everything i want to....u are the greatest....its 11.17pm....gotta go and sleep liao.....good nite bloggie...

i regretted putting this topic...cos everyone regards wat i typed as crap....wow!!~!thanks hor....after i type so much as u gave my tat COMPLIMENT....if wat i wanted ever to say....everything is stright frm my heart....its all in my blog

to yih huat: if the class ever splits up...it better does..cos i suppose tat will allow our class to concentrate on studying....believe me..its my prediction...but den i will do everything to prevent tat from happening...cos i dun see the need to....WHY??

those who are my frens know me as one of their best frens if they wanted me to...those who nv gif me the chance nv knoe me as a fren at all.....those who i consider frens but only consider me as sth else will live to regret.....so ANYONE....who really needs a true fren....shld gif ALL of his frens A CHANCE...trust me...its true

to nic: call me juz now came as quite a surprise....but nvm...as i told manfred...surprises are good...ber oso once say tat life is made up of surprises....

and to a lot of u out there....THINGS ARENT WAT IT SEEMS IT IS...i oso really dun know everyone of u....humans are call man bcos they all wear a mask to cover their real self.....BUT IS THERE A NEED TO...why cant there be a civilisation where everyone is honest wif one another....where everyone trust each other and accept one another.......
and to fred: this yr have even start for 5 mths and u say it sux...dunch u think it is a bit the personal...okie lah...cant blame u cos its ur own personal view.....everyone gotta haf their own say.....tats the world....tats why God gave each of us a mouth each...to say and express our wn views...BUT I DUN THINK HE HAS EVER THINK OF THE CONSEQUENCES....mebbe he has...and he wants it this way....NO ONE wants to be weaker than the rest...tats why they kp....tats why they wear a mask....tats why they do all the things to protect themselves....and i swear tat i haf done all the above mentioned.....tats me....God dun gave us feelings like embarassed...ashamed and proud for fun....he wants everyone to feel tat....mebbe its all plan when he make the world...but why cant he make a perfect one....mebbe u can say its the work of the devil....yah...mebbe tats life....

haiz.......juz read fred and eunice blogs.........both is so full of meaning tat i gotta read sth back.......first of all.....its not tat we change or wat...mebbe its juz tat u dun like her..u knoe...wat i toking bout..after all those things tat happen...den vince is ...well u know oso...wif serene all those things.....den i really wonder WHY IS THERE A NEED FOR ALL THESE PROBLEMS...how i wish tat someday all of us can get together....all those u know who.....and there is really NO POINT in getting upset over all these things cos JUZ THINK...whu else other than u all cause these problems....and u know fred...bout ur defination bout misunderstandings....i think it gotta do wif wat i wrote there as acceptance and trust......IF NO ONE TRUST THE OTHER 1/2....WATS THERE TO TOK ABOUT??u tell me lah....no trust=unacceptance......and fred...there is no need to feel tat everything is so fucked....there is a saying....its goes sth like this....the worst war on earth is the war of a man against himself....why shld u want to bother so much unless u are not happy and contented....BUT DUNCH U FEEL TAT WE ARE ALREADY VERY HAPPY COMPARED TO A LOT OTHERS>>>DUN TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED.

To Eunice: i believe tat person u are looking for is around...juz tat u nv notice...cos tat person nv show it out....i suppose if u juz think harder bout everything....tat someone will be tat person who will juz keep on appearing in ur mind when u think of all ur probs...and relax...

ok...the time now is 12.28pm...Sunday....lao bu cooking luch downstairs....aiyah...they all downstairs lah...den later plan to study for tml maths diff test...hehe...open book test leh...sally tee must be underestimating us...wha...i really cocky hor...later fail i i paisei manz....wont one lahz..must study hard....den juz cut my hair oso....front didnt cut lahz...den my mum say i look neater...wat cock....in mind neat can liao....still want physically neat...den might as well cut botak...and yay!!!! Man U won the title again... We are the champions....We are the champions...!!!hahaha.....told u manz....haiz....tml tau go sch going to kp again.....den i vincent...i am really sorry tat ur phone got stolen...tat guy really a bastard manz....hey..if need any help juz ask me hor....i will do my best to help....haiz...manfred ah and weefong oso(friendly tone...even if u cant hear)...sumtimes u really must appreciate the trust pple give u...dunch take things for granted hor...:>

haf to explain to those pple who think i 'pang sei' them on fri...actually mebbe its my fault...couldnt make up my mind...first of all..its isnt fredie who ask me to go...cos i chose to go... afterall i can make my own decisions...den i think bcos bout the suntec part....fred WAS at suntec ..tats why i wanted to go there....its only after tat den he went redhill...den i of course must change my mind to go there....its not tat juz bcos he tell me to go den i go...i oso believe tat if i had gone on to find yifai and co...i wouldnt haf much else to do then to be 'meng shen'....sorry hor guys...if there has been any misunderstandings....i am sure u all understand....

nowadays....dunch noe why very hard to laugh really hard....last time can really laugh non stop one....really dunno why...mebbee its the loads of things in my mind tat is still left undone...or mebbe there is really nuthing to laugh about...or mebbe i enjoy making pple laugh instead...haiz...dunno...

yest...Saturday...not a bad day for a Sat....went out at 7.30am and came back at 10.15pm...watch get over it...den got free show...the mexican...but watch partially of it...den we zhao...cos got one fat bitch coming to get us liao...really can sense my parents displeasure in me liao....fri reach home at 12midnite...den yest nite....haiz...

acceptance is oso a word tat is lacking in my life....wat can i do...cos its associated wif trust....those who don understand...read the blog on trust....

have to thanks E for letting me go her house..Thanks!!

the important word...trust is always never mention or thot of....yet it plays the most important part in everything....cos it allows everything to be done...so why dun u all gif me tat tiny bit of god damn trust...so tat i will be able to do things...mebbee bcos u are juz scared tat sth may go wrong...but den if u don't trust me...sth really will go wrong...its true

okie...this is the dunno wat time i am doing this...cos yest com like sai...den today very eventful...oso very farnie...today go sch got into the wrong compartment of train...i think i am one of the only 2 guys standing there...at least 10 others opp sex there..not bad lah..can diao chio bu...den cum sch nuthing quite unusual happen...den fuck...fail physics test by 1 mark...fuck manfred...dun wan to gif me his one mark..today maths pass quite fast...actually wanna kick ji...but youzong lao pei not happy...den so after sch go pa pool...bought 8 bucks shirt...not bad...looks like the portugal jersey...den saw S and fred's shimei...sorrie hor guys...tok so much crap...i think u guys the eyes a bit blur liao rite...sorrie hor...paisei...okok..i ending soon liao...really ending liao...its true...really lahz...u must believe me leh....hiyah...i oso scare the com monitor no ink to type out the words...hehe...den now smsing S...she wanna intro fred's shimei to me...uh huh...i heard u guys...me no des hor...u wanna next time i fuck..i confirm ask u join in...as they say..the more the merrier...orh yeah...den juz now at mac...got a group of 'siao ar' laughing like siao...den the chio bu sitting 2 chairs away was like glancing me....whoa..the YANDAO KIA....tats me...its true...uhh......den still got wat ar....orh...must bring smkdwn2 to ong bu tml...better go take now...i standing up now...walking to my room to take the cd...den come back sit down to type all this crap out....wha...type so long...i think i better stop now...gotta go and study ting xie tml...aiyah...but ting xie in 4-3 always like free one...hehhe...wha...almost like writing compo liao....hehe...krishnan will be so PROUD of me....imagine tat manz....ok lah... a finally note... some of the words are purposely tye this way to protect the pple...so guys pls dun assume unless its proven...as i say..toking crap is so fun....and i betcha u know wat crap are...u know...those things wif 8 legs....huh...or issit 6??aiyah nvm oso...den must remind those guys out there....its like 19 more weeks to the big thing...aiyah...not the big show larZ...he sugs anyway....so big...juz pinch hie nip can liao...den he will moan like jiechao today....haha...wha lanz...really must go pong pong liao...stinks manz...cya guys...sorrie for the craps(butter).....haiz...den today tok bout vince...3 mths liao...still haven... WEI SHEN MO...hey aye aye...not u lah ber....not going say bout u lahz....tats NORMAL lah...nvm vincent...i yong yuan zhi chi ni...weefong oso...take ur time slowly hor....slow is good....everlasting like wat i use to say....ar huh...den this friday how guys??

HiEz....FiNalLy sEt Up ThiS cRaPpy ShIt tHing...BLOG>>wAt a NAmE mAnz...HeHE.... seEms sO lAme LeHz....sOrRiE hOr GuYs...For asking u guys to read this lameful crap....wha lan...i think type like dat faster...den today very fun.....Mrs Goh very inspirational.....lol...den manfred say he going home to study...den today maths me and yifai act cocky...cos we finish maths liao...hahahaha.....den sally seems very bui song cos i finish everything even b4 the class....haiz....i go do chem liao....tauwen i heard u....dun shout JIAO CHEM again...piss me off manz....den i think after this i going to tell manfred come see this...den my sis behind me keep on hong ge ge.... okok.... tats all....its true...