Alcohol is a powerful thing. It is something that strikes you with a delay effect. All your senses just slow down. It just slows your right down until you are lagging. You look there and when you look here, half a second of that view is still of 'there'. You can still think... yes you know what you are saying. But you just become slower. Stunted.

Yesterday was nice... went school for facil training... then lunch with the dudes at lido... then home... managed to catch 2 hrs of sleep... haha... went steph's house... ate lots of things then need to go orchard mrt to shit... but it was nice... thanks desmond for the cups... and steph, flea and minsi for the cards... sorry could not stay long else i would be able to see dennis... we should have more of this stuff...

Wah... yesterday was a night to remember... the worst 'drunk' state i ever got into... the 5 of us... i think we all just got carried away... then furthermore i thought 1 bottle not enough... in the end 1 bottle got 3 of us puking and going home at 12 plus... Lots of factors la... we drank too fast... it was too concentrated... the 1st part i poured too much in... aiya just got carried away la... then the instant noodles technique didn't work... it made me worse which perhaps led to the puking... couldn't hold on any longer in the bus so i got off at bishan... my head was so damn heavy loh... and i just wanted to sleep...

Lol... if only vincent had came also... one more man down...

The "masseur" was good... really manz... especially when she goes down the neck and around the ears... the warm water made everything even better... then the "blowjob" was excellent... blow and blow until i was all dry... really really dry... and that guy next to me was doing another guy... then he came to me... well... think the girls were all busy... so ya... but he wasn't that good la... got my hair standing towards the end... then i didn't know it is so expensive...

OH SHIT~!! i just realised something... that my hair is not black... and if my hair is not black, how can i go back to school for O1? argh damn... at a dilemna now... should i just black my hair? or should i just pull out of O1? The odds are quite balanced because i might be working as well plus the practical lessons... i see how la... or maybe i can just use temporary black hair spray every morning... but i hate those stuff...

Had a nice xmas... went town everyday... played lan... oh ya... played 4 players fifa on wed... it was hilarious but it was good manz... i wonder how many people can play at the same time... watched scary movie 3 yesterday... it was totally haha... haha... haha... hahahaha... lol... hah... hahahhah... pammy's boobs seemed to have gotten bigger... ya anyway later will be calling up the restaurant... if i'm lucky i'll get the job... and will be going for street soccer later... man u match tonight... just saw lakers lost to houston... damn manz... should have won...

wah yesterday fred was a total beep beep... then i decided i would be a total beep beep also... but it was fun la... haha... mms is so fun...

Watched 2 shows recently which touched me tremendously... one is pearl harbor which i finally bought the dvd and the other is lotr... the ending part where everyone went into the room then sam went in... all these about brotherhood and friendship... whoa... it just felt as if your heart got squeezed a bit...

Got 1 bottle of barcardi and vodka each... time to puke manz...

The Gatsby advertisement is getting into me.

Lets talk about expectations today. When you expect something, you expect it to happen or to come. But when it doesn't come you either get surprised or disappointed. Lets talk about the latter. Disappointment is very affecting. It strikes you very hard, striking you right in the middle of your heart until your eyes well up... you just lose a moment of breath and everything spins a bit. But the thing is why do you expect?

Well... i guess you expect because erm... you just expect. Maybe you have done something and have tried very hard or put in a lot thus you expect something. Is it wrong for you to expect? Well... i guess it is not wrong. Because if you expect something, but it isn't of nature for it to occur, then you are going against nature. By the way, nature doesn't change that easily. Sometimes nature doesn't change at all.

Therefore i've changed or rather, adjusted myself so that i will rid myself off much disappointment. I guess it is the best this way as i am more adaptable. I just need to change my mindset. It is very simple actually. You just set your mind into doing it and you just screw the fuck out of it.

oh yeah... i've learnt how to use a MD... haha... call me a country bumpkin but i haven't fiddled with that thing before...

Signed up for lessons already... hoped to finish everything by the end of feb... if not mid march... quite confident about it especially when my parents are fully supporting me...

Di came back yesterday and heard bryan and kenneth cheng got food poisoning... poor dudes... they should have known better not to eat so much of those stuff over at that kind of place... she's leaving tmr again for HK...

Yup... nothing much to say... though much had happened...

Have a merry Xmas dudes...

Went out on wed... shopped around and watched infernal affairs 3... it's a good show... but the thing is i should have watched infernal affairs 1 first... then maybe i would had understand more of 3... it is highly confusing...

Had MJ session with the kakis minus yh plus jt last night... 1st time won so much... haha was quite shocked by my luck... but it felt good la...

i had my 1st DK yesterday... was damn damn happy... 1800 bucks okie... used J.D... it is good la... it should be renamed B.K... Bunge King...

nothing much la actually... reached a new stage... yet so much things bothering me... i am tired... as in i just don't feel like doing anything... i just want to laze and not do anything... i don't want to have anymore responsibilities...

the feeling is very null...

aiya... damn... if only i had screwed the shit... if only i didn't ask... i could have got a great time feeling manz...

Went to the temple over there... got a qian... it wasn't very good...

Back... it was fun... bought some stuff...

Yay... now got sports channel liao... damn happy...

The show i was watching at a shop in hongkong starring stephen chow is on tv now... so coincidental...

Today is great... went to watch elf... nice show... must watch...

Too bad yh had gone in... bought smth for the guys to share... pretty good stuff...

In Hongkong now... the room actually got internet access manz... haha... damn tired... coming back soon...

Sorry dudes... not going Chinablack tonight... gonna stay at home and kick some asses of turtles and mages and big foots and mammoths...

Been playing gunbound non stop... then the nice feeling set in for the 1st time just now... the four of us just formed the ultimate team... rapport manz...