Lots of people are suffering from insomnia and there are many causes to it.

(Haha... i don't know why i am writing this here but it's probably because i am studying it)

But some interesting points to note is that, some psychological causes are worrying, TRYING TOO HARD TO SLEEP, or anxiety(alison is one living example.. =p)

Trying too hard to sleep is interesting... so next time when you can't sleep, don't bother trying to sleep. Get up and go do something... go watch porn or something or go run around your neighbourhood at 1am... or better still, try to go read up on insomnia.

Anyway, one of the points is "Don't do anything in your bed but sleep. Your bed should be a cue for sleeping, not studying or watching television. Because sleeping is a reflex response, using the bed as a cue for sleeping is a kind of learning called classical conditioning(I wrote an essay on this!!!), or the pairing of cues and reflex responses."

Hmmmmm...... then where do people have sex?

Imagine... everytime you lie on your bed and you think of sex.

Cheers~

Trying out something new...







But the problem is must upload the photos to the webbie and i don't have the habit of uploading photos...

Some photos from the fondue night... supposed to wear pyjamas but only Kenneth and Terence bothered...





Zouk last night was packed. I knew it's going to be packed but it's really damn bad. It's the most packed i've ever seen. Thanks to Serene for allowing us to cut her queue if not don't think we could get into phuture.

Alison commented on my hair which i spent a wee bit longer styling it. Haha i know it's nice!! =p

Didn't particularly enjoy myself much cos of the immense crowd and i was running here and there. Saw so many people there... Derek from my t33 class, Wise, Carol and the nus seniors, Tiong, Abel, Kenneth Chiu and Dionne, Alvin Neo, Ting Kuang, Kennedy and Nicole as always, Shuhui and Evelyn too... Alison was damn funny cos she wanted to puke the whole night... aiya she's always funny la... Benedict, Jiahao, Sophie, Emileen and Michelle were there too...





Okie it's Thursday. 3 more days to start of Week 7. Time to properly get some work done.

Just got back from another day of huan dao zui zui zui. Jialin really cracks me up sometimes. But heng to have her there if not i will just die from driving around... it's so freaking frustrating...

Bought 1 shirt and 1 tee just now. Really really should stop spending liao.

Zouk later~

Check out this "Philo" article man... Haven't been here before but the posts he has are pretty good...

http://dilbertblog.typepad.com/the_dilbert_blog/2006/09/philosophical_q.html

Well... if you like it and think you got plenty to comment about it, maybe you can take PH1101E too!

=p

And for those comic lovers(like me)... check this out...

http://theages.superman.ws/History/redson/

Imagine Superman on the Soviet side!

Today was huan dao zui zui zui... went from NUS to NTU to Spore Discovery Centre to Mandai Zoo to AMK to Serangoon Gardens to Town to Bedok and back to NUS.

Fuel tank's hurting...

A very relevant article on Straits Times home... thanks to Many!!

And we TRIED doing surveys but the uncles were all very unfriendly lor... bleah... in the end none was done and only a nice boy in NUS did 1 for us....

Gonna do the main roads on Wed...

Since Jialin said cannot have high hopes... then i shall aim for a C+!! =p

Since she posted a "nice" photo of me, i shall return the compliment... =p


Anyway... just wondering... were your geog tutors cool? Mine are cool... and T C Chang, who is the human geog lecturer, has just taught us his 2nd last lecture and won't be back till the end of the semester. And i know i am going to miss him.

He's like a cool funky uncle la... like Lester Low and Alvin Saw... but these 2 aren't exactly uncles... but ya you get my point...

Singapore Idol finals on tv now. I am supporting Jonathan Leong... haha... GOOOOO JONNNIEEEE~!!!

Yesterday i broke my "promise".

Actually it wasn't a promise to anyone. It was more of a challenge to myself. But i couldn't stand my hair anymore, so i went to get it cut... and i like how it is now!! =)

Fondue party at Ter's house was fun!!! But we all got quite sick of chocolate after that. But i am surprised my throat's still fine. Didn't sleep much cos 5 of us were like squeezing on the bed and i got the edge. Got fear of falling so probably didn't sleep well also.

After that went home to change and then met Terry, Zihao, Yiwei, Cheekeong, Jianxian and Chun Boon for Kbox. It was for Terry's bday celebration... walked around after that and went to eat hong kong xiao chi... and then that's when i finally decided to cut my hair... so went off to PS to cut it.

Met Shuhui, Yf and Yh at New York New York at citylink for dinner. Haven't seen them in awhile... MJ soon yea... but then i am falling behind in my work... haha was thinking about this... there is this dilemma between concentrating on my goal and just mugging and mugging, and just relax a little bit and do the things i want... spend more time with the people around me and still study... Like i can go out play when people ask me... and maybe be a bit behind in my work... or i just concentrate on mugging... i think the former suits me... i ain't no mugger...

Anyway, back to yest... we went to east coast park... haven't taken ECP for damn long... (Miss you!!) cos fai needs to go there for chalet... then the remaining 3 of us talked a bit then Dota beckons suddenly...

Terribly shagged after the games...

Ok i am late but soccer now!!! See... i am not a mugger!!

Why can't the Philo paper be as easy as the Psych paper? I took one night and 2 hours to finish the Psych mid term paper... and i've spent 3 days and there still isn't a single word on my Philo paper...

I really should get down to maybe writing the 1st word, then perhaps the words will all flow. Oh i learnt of a new term during Psych tute that day. It's called insightful problem solving. It means that you will unknowingly, suddenly out of the blue realised the answer to something.

I hope that comes sooner for my Philo paper.

I miss you ...



Approximately 50 more days yea ... =)

Today was a draggy day. Like how i got a break from 12-4 and in the end went to Jialin's room to grab photos. Supposed to write my Philo term paper but didn't get round to doing it.

And it looks like my fear for the mid term papers have decreased significantly. Psych only requires 2 pages which is like damn short la... and Philo requires 4 pages which is slightly longer than a normal essay, but as how Kenneth put it, we were once lit students and thus have the ability to crap our way through.

Dinner was instant noodles because i forgot to inform my dad to buy for me, which sucked. The taste is damn funny la... TFKC on tv just now touched a spot on my heart when Yingqi's mother died. Could feel the wrench but my mum was tearing so it's all in the genes i guess.

Yesterday printed a calendar and i am surprised by the quality of the photos that are printed out on normal A4 paper. Somemore some of the photos are taken with my 1.3 Megapixel phone la... Wahhhh imagining a 3.2 Megapixel one... shiok man...

Was damn excited just now when i realised there are new RP programmes open for participants. I am like desperate for points la... but the 2 available which i signed up for only have 1 point each... how to get 10 more points in 7 weeks...

And since i kop some photos just now and i haven't posted much photos lately, here are some random photos from all over...

This was quite long ago when we went down to the Changing Landscape office to change our tutorial timings...

Tor Yuan's room-warming...

Photo-whoring as usual... and smiling at the camera is boring...

Me, Jialin and Many during CL lecture... Bought 2 "flowers" from Steph for charity and gave it to them...

And this is all the thanks i got ... =p (somehow i don't remember taking this shot... can't blame me especially considering how photo-crazy they are)

This shot is hilarious. It's surely going to cheer me up anytime. Just looking at my bloated face. See that's the problem with them... they love taking photos while i am eating... =p Trying smiling with a fishball in your mouth...

Lacoste at Mirama for TIM SUM~!!!

Ahhh... this was wayyyy back during bash... Brought a hugggeeee smile to my face and boosted my confidence when i saw it... (Kenneth got one too but i think i prefer my red colour =p) Thank you both once again...

Haha... mac elitist huh... =x I am ashamed...

"The fish trap exists because of the fish; once you've gotten the fish, you can forget the trap.
The rabbit snare exists because of the rabbit; once you've gotten the rabbit, you can forget the snare.
Words exist because of meaning; once you've gotten the meaning, you can forget the words.
Where can I find a man who has forgotten words so I can have a word with him?" (Zhuangzi, ch. 26)

Ahhhhh~~ Philosophy ...

I thought i should go get some sleep since it's past 2am now but i've got something to get off my chest.

Happiness to me now ranks highly and i think as long as i constantly remind myself, i will more or less live the life i would like. Maybe as what Jamie Yeo said in today's papers... "I've reached an age whereby what people said don't affect me anymore"... it's something to work towards.

Keeping track of my priorities, my family, my friends and ensuring people whom i love and treasure are happy are the important things to me now. Work hard in school and aim for good results, play hard and win. Live life to the fullest!

No one's gonna pull me down. I know what i want and i will get it.

Cheers~ =)

Week 6... here i come!!


And check out this beauty over here ...

Sometimes i feel that relationships are overrated. It was almost like a big hoo ha in the past when we were all younger, and it was like we have got our own ideas how our own relationships should be like.

You know... like what he or she should or should not do... that kind of stuff...

Now i believe that if you don't go think so much about how it will be like, and care less about the minute stuff, both sides will get along happily.

The condom issue in the Sunday times brought back memories of that time when TW brought some condoms to school and distributed to us. I thought it wasn't such a big case then, but it was funny when we all had one condom in our wallet for awhile after that.

Matrix Reloaded on tv. Somehow i don't remember much of the show. It's one of those movies which has cultures and lingos and ideas and whatnots which i cannot relate much too. When people talk about the matrix, i usually do not get it but i know about neo, about morpheous, about trinity, about the machines... but i don't quite get the system... =p

2 great matches later...

Haven't been studying this weekend. I really should prohibit the thought of putting things off because i promise i will work damn hard next week. It just... doesn't work this way...

Okie... since i've made things as they are now, next 2 weeks shall be mugging weeks!!

Posting

"Please be informed that you are posted to 353 SEC as a BRDG ENGR SPEC with effect from 01/09/06."

I was kind of hoping that they might have forgotten about me. But darn... haha... funny thing is that's how they said in the letter. So how would i know when i get recalled?

Anyway, quite sian it's the monsoon season now. Not that i entirely hate rain or what, but unless i am sleeping in or just chilling at home, i prefer the weather to be bright and sunny.

Was kind of lazy last night. Even though i know i've got assignments to complete by some date, but somehow the "much-available" time doesn't make me panic as yet. Maybe when term break comes, i will then really start feeling all those work.

Haiz... all this procrastinating...

Later going for dinner with the t02 people at clarke quay...

Supposed to study this afternoon with Alison but she pangseh me. In the end went to Tor Yuan's room warming with the lacoste people. After that Alison and Ty's og mates came. Then we waited for Terence to come before going to UCC for the Singapore Idol thing. Was surprised i actually decided to go but i guess it has been a long week and i needed that kind of break...





Wore the white cap to school today then Alison said i very xiao peng you... machiam like sec 5... diaox...

Anyway, shall go read up on my Philo...

Went school in quite a daze this morning so i thought i would go get a cup of whatever coffee from coffee express before changing landscape.

It helped me last the whole day!!

Although i am quite tired now. =p

Haha... but last night managed to meet up with the council people at Holland V~!! Then Dota after that was good too... played with others and it was intense...

Supposed to meet Alison at 2 to study today but then JS project discussion suddenly came in so only managed to get to the library at 4. Managed to post 1 entry each for the Philo blog and the JS forum.

Well... work to be completed... JS citations complilation, Eng grammar editing, readings and i better start on my term papers soon...

Bleah... it's never ending...

And i am feeling flabby... didn't manage to play soccer last sat and there's no vball tmr... sianz...

... I am turning it on replay so that it can numb me eventually ...

Pretty eventful day today. Went for psy lect which demostrated the stimulant and response test which is very much AK. Then went for lunch and Wenhui sent to my phones 2 of Jay Chou's new songs. Saw Audrey and Richard(JS proj mates) then went to JS tute with TK. I forgot to do the reading so i kind of smoked through the tute. But somehow i learnt new stuff. =p

Went library after that to find Nana but couldn't find her, and i ended up sitting with Michelle cos i saw her. She's damn hardworking la. I read the Yakuza book until i almost fell asleep. Then after that Many came then i realised Nana and Wenhui only a few tables away. Haha...

Then i went online and Alison was like dying to find out who i was studying with cos she syndroming that i studying with hot babe... haha...

After that went to meet the rest to go Gelare. Then Terence happily called me and told me he was already on his way there with Cass, both of them tian mi mi and i got like 9 people with me... and there is no possible way all of them can squeeze into the 3949. So Terence made his way back and we went Holland V for dinner and ice cream.

Kind of sad that i am the one that is mostly thinking about how to bring the 2 groups together. It's like the lacoste group has set up this barrier to any external group and it's like when Nana was in the same car with us, i seriously could feel she was left out. I recently studied about EQ and i think this has something to do with it. Then the tailwind group also hinted that we were like within ourselves.

Do you know how hard it is to get stuck in between? Especially when Leanna is there and i don't know whether to play my role as the AOGL. Which side should i entertain more? They were the people who supported me when i needed them, and i can't possibly ditch them because i know the lacoste people earlier.

Seriously i am contemplating next time if such a scenario happens again, i won't be present there. True i had lots of fun, but if you guys don't know the etiquette of thinking for others... it's very sad...

When you all proposed sitting at the round cushion seats, i told you all to put yourselves in their shoes. What will they think when they come and see us all seated down here and they got no place to sit and they got to sit at another corner in the room? Doesn't that just imply we are 2 different groups? Didn't we agree to go out together?

Shucks... i need to chill...

Benedict and I were discussing how scandalous some people can get. It was quite interesting because we were touching on a rather sensitive topic like how girls who are attached can still go on "dates" countless times with the same guy.

I asked him so whose fault is it? Is it the female's fault because she can't control herself and keeps hanging out with the male? Or is it the male's fault, as he already knew she is attached, yet he is unable to resist hanging out with her?

Maybe this isn't a really a big thing, but it never occured to me until recently. Until J told me that he will still go for Uni girls, even though they are attached, simply because their bfs are in army.

Which is very true... because when the bf is in army, the girl tends to think a lot, or so it seems. Ben said... "Look at it this way, would you want to spend 2 pathetic days with your army boy who is botak and tired after he books out or would you want to spend 5 days with a guy who can dedicate the attention to you?"

Food for thought... =)

Today at Munchin' Monkeys, there is this Tiger Beer poster which says, Relationship 1001 - As long as the girl is not married, you still have a chance.

Cheers~

Looking at the remaining participants of Singapore Idol(not that i actually watch much of it), i thought it looks somewhat like last season. 2 guys, 1 chinese 1 malay, and 1 girl.

Should i mention that Jasmine is very pretty? She has like damn nice features la... but she is very bak... =p

Dota later... yay!!

But i need to find time to quickly compile my Yakuza info too...

Somehow there's this part about me(i don't know if it's weird or not) that makes me want to care for my buddies' girlfriends.

Erm... please don't go anyhow think k...

It's a very instinctive thing for me. Like i just feel compelled to look after them as best as how my good friends would.

I don't know how to explain... and the weirdest thing is even if they are not together now, if you ask me to perhaps send the girl home, i would do that willingly. Or maybe if some guy of bad reputation is trying to hit on her, i would step in too.

Like how i see Serene around school, i would still "look out" for her.

I think like... since this girl is someone whom my close friend truly cherish and love, i should in a way do as much as i can to make sure nothing harms her...

Hmmm... making me sound like a buaya... but bah whatever...

Oh and i meant to blog about the latest movie i've watched... The Breakup...
By Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaughn... It proves my belief of not talking to friends after an argument because friends on the female side will advise against the male and vice versa, thus making the relationship even more strained. Notice how a small argument blew up because of the influences from friends.

I still believe that should a couple have any problem, they should solve it between themselves. =)

I wonder why there are people who dislike me?

And i don't have an answer.

Because usually it ends up with that person not talking to me and thus vice versa.

So i don't usually get to ask the person for the reason.

I think i go about life rather simply. I enjoy the company of friends, and regarding this, maybe it's a bit wrong but i won't be friends with people who do not reciprocate my friendship.

I told Alison today that i've got enough friends to last me, and if you do not want to be my friend(not her), probably because of some external influences or so, then so be it. If my current friends do not want to be friends with me in the future, then i will go look for new ones.

Perhaps that might sound disappointing to some, but that's how i view friendships as. I don't want to get let down my people anymore, and if you stretch out your hand for mine, i will hold on tightly to yours. If you slap mine away, i can only hold on to my own hand.

Seriously i am be totally nonchalant about this issue after i blog this down. Remember everything needs a closure? I don't care for the reasons why all of you dislike me. Or maybe if you can tell me, i can try to change? Maybe you don't like the way i talk? Or maybe you don't like the way i laugh? The way i walk?

Like what my tutor said, "if you don't like anything about me, you don't have to come for class so that you don't need to waste 2 hours of your life every other week looking at me."

So... maybe you just don't want to see me ever again...

Yeah anyway, i was pretty angsty just now. I thought how rude it was to call people names. Then i thought of how i was doing the same. Or rather i didn't call people names, but i talked bad about them.

Stupid Alison. The Syndroming syndrome is getting to me.

Oh... on a lighter note, remember the post awhile back which i said i felt that after people enterer uni, they seemed to have changed, such that they became more serious and lacking in energy. Yup and i know the reason why... cos i was walking around in school like that. It's the hectic schedule and when you see that all your work is piling up, you will naturally feel that way.

=)

After reading all the stuff... since i shouldn't say anything, i should just make a face... like how i always do when i don't understand what's going on...

o_O?

Haha... in the school library now... 5:18pm liao... got to go pick my sister up soon.

Haven't actually done much for my JS proj.

And i am quite shagged. Last night Zouk was good. Freaking packed cos it was BMT POP day... wtf man... Kenneth was wasted quite early and it was damn funny la... but it's pretty amazing how guys just swarmed to Michelle, Emileen and Sophie... me and Sop's friends had to hold off all the "illegal parkers"... and Benedict and Jiahao were missing most of the time which i've got no idea why.

Didn't know Bryan is a mambo king...

NUS people are a bunch of muggers sia...

Not right to post this... but i think this is freaking hilarious... especially that part when the guy was like shouting "si bu yong jing... wo sacrifice~!!"

We need more of this kind of soldiers around...


But then... recruits will always be recruits... ORD LO~!!

Soccer was good just now. I needed that. Except i injured myself a little. But more vball and soccer hopefully. Need to exercise.

I was kind of shocked by Rayner's decision to quit school. But after thinking about it, i think it makes sense. No point staying on if your interest is not there.

Printer's not working. And i have no freaking idea why. It's really frustrating especially the reason why the printer's in my room now is because i've got lots of stuff to print.

Printer... please start working again...

Oh... I received my DBS debit card liao... =)

I am going to attempt to blog about Philo. No particular reason except i want to see how organised my thoughts are.

In Philosophy, we learn about concepts and values through the "Three Dialogues by Plato". However, as of now, i am only taught up to Euthyphro.

Well... in Euthyphro, the main ideas basically revolve around Euthyphro's case of prosecuting his father for "murder". Socrates comes into the picture as someone accused of corrupting the youth by introducing new gods into Athens.

So Socrates met up with Euthyphro and their conversations brought up several interesting points to ponder about.

Firstly, Euthyphro explained his case that his father caused the death of a servant, who was a murderer himself. So you see... the question is brought up: Is it RIGHT to murder/kill a murder? Then, the next question, should a son prosecute his own father?

Well, factors such as being filial, and all the time and effort the father took to bring up the son come into play... and you start wondering... okie... so you need to debate between what is morally right as a personal self and what is "acting" right in the society. Imagine prosecuting your father. All your relatives are going to come after you... as in a normal situation... are you going to protect your kin and hide his crime because you "owe" your upbringing to him?

So what is right and wrong?

Next, the question on 'holiness' is brought up. What is holiness? Oh by the way, holiness is linked very much to piety and it is impious for a son to prosecute a father for murder. And Euthyphro thinks his knowledge of the divine, of holiness and unholiness is very accurate, thus he is merely acting what he deems as holy.

So Socrates asked him to define what is holiness. "Definition" is one of the main topic here as Socrates felt that in order to have a fair ground of argument(or maybe not to have one), a standard definition of everything is needed.

Like Prof Holbo said in lecture, "What is a chair?" And everyone starts giving definition of a chair. A chair is something to sit on. Yea... you can sit on a table too. And ya... you get my drift... and it's much easy to define objects, things you can actually see. But imagine this, try defining courage or holiness or even "necessary". What is courage? Handing up an empty piece of paper during exam is courage? Saving a damsel in distress is courage? Jumping from 5 stories down is courage? Well... no one can actually have a clear definition of stuff like that...(that's why to me much of what was said was kind of bullshit)

I mean courage is courage... like when you do brave stuff, you are courageous in a way.

But for Socrates, only knowing the true intrinsic nature will lead to the "action" being shown. Thus when it reached here, i thought i am losing it. Like so being courageous is like you got to DO EVERYTHING BRAVE? I mean everyone's different and this guy here is looking for the perfectly good life. And that's why he's going around irritating the shit out of everyone by asking them questions after questions in order to get the perfect answer he wants. There can never be a flaw, if not he will go back to the beginning again.

And imagine this, if he really did find out all the definitions of leading a good life, he would be busy saving everyone, donating to charity till he's broke, making everyone happy and stuff like that. So what's the point?

Ok i digressed. Euthyphro then said "what the gods love is holy; and what is unloved by them is unholy".

Problem is, according to the Greek history, the gods are not exactly very friendly to each other. In fact, the gods go to war with one another, and there are hateful rivalries and battles between them.

So, what they love and unlove are not exactly the same. Thus this awkward consequence occur: some things will be BOTH holy and unholy.

Until now, it's quite a lot for me to take in considering how unreligious i am.

Actually i was thinking of something this morning. I was wondering in the end it kind of came down, whether the gods were there first or whether the morals and everything else were there first? You know... like the egg and chicken story...

So God created the world? Or so it seems... then so he must have made morals and virtues and everything else... right?

But Socrates asked, "Is the holy loved by the gods because it is holy, or is it holy because it is loved by the gods?"

Now the Orders of explanation come in. So it gets pretty roundabout. Like HUH.

I feel that Socrates asked too many questions. He lumped too many things into the picture and confused everyone. Like ok... you can say bird makes you think of wings and wings make you think of a plane and plane makes you think of passengers and passengers make you think of luggage. BUT you cannot link bird closely to lugguge~!!! You get my point?

Seriously... He make the gods sound like men. There was this particular part which got me really O_O. He said men prayed and doing things of holiness are service to the gods. Then he asked so what result is it that the gods achieve when they employ us as servants. So in a way, he was saying that man being holy was of service to the gods, but he asked so what do the gods receive from men?

S: "What they give us is obvious enough; there is no good we enjoy that does not come from them. But how is their lot improved by what they receive from us? Or have we gotten so much the better of them in our barter that we get all their blessings, while they get nothing back in return?"

E: "What else, indeed, except for honor, reverence, and that thing i mentioned just now, gratitude?"

S: "Holiness, then, is pleasing to the gods, Euthyphro, but not beneficial or dear to them?"

It's quite duh right? Like ok... we are being... generally morally right... and i am sure the gods seeing us like that would be happy, because that is their aim?

Like for God's sakes, why is Socrates seeing men being holy as something that needs to bring benefits to the gods? I mean, gods are gods. They are almighty and ermmm... ya you get my point... why do they need benefits from us? Ok maybe i don't know about this... but ya...

Now suddenly i feel maybe i have gotten all the wrong ideas. Maybe i am the dumb one. Like crap. But now a thought hits me. What if i post that up in the Philo blog? I am sure it reflects a few student's thinking about Philo. Well... at least for mine, Boon Hua and Cass. Then Prof Holbo will come after me.

Oh well... i've tried my best for this post...

Cheers~

End of 3rd week. Had my first taste of tutorials.

Had a talk with Boon Hua during Philo just now. Looks like i am not the only one not having an idea of what to expect from Philo.

Supposed to go Sentosa for some event with Mich and Sop later. Don't know who else they called but Mich and I are feeling quite lazy, so i think they probably cancelled the thing. I think they are planning something for next wed. Probably Zouk or something.

Don't know if GY they all playing vball tmr or not... then got to meet the Lacoste people in town in the afternoon... Means i got to do some studying tonight.

So much readings... Just gotten my JS course pack so i got some catching up to do... Printing Geog readings now... and Philo's got new chapter to complete.

Read Read Read~