Plans:

IDEA 1 : Try to get dance club to choreo a mass dance
IDEA 2: Poster and announcement to thank everyone, esp performers and lim kim peng for teachers' day's success
IDEA 3: AJ has this notice board whereby all the CCAs slot in their announcements into little pockets ... itz all on one poster so by glancing at it, you know which CCA have wat announcements to make ... currently the CCA notice boards are all over the place in CJ ... very messy ... we should put all announcements into one board outside SC room with transparent pockets for CCAs to slot their announcements ... more convenient for everybody
IDEA 4: AJ council works pretty closely with the CCAs and they appealled to the CCa leaders on who wanted to join in the committee for open house ... mebbe we can do that for O1

aLL i wAn iS a chAncE fOr uS 2 bE 2gEthEr... m i AskiNG fOr tOo mUch? oR m i ASkiNg fOr e iMpoSsibLe herE? =( i rEAlly lUv u..

The Teachers' Day celebration is a major success. Only the front part when the moving in of the students were screwed up. It was a bit chaotic, but we got together our act and make everything as nice as possible. It was commented that this is the best concert that the teachers have seen in years. Whoa....heez...=) 28th rocks manz~!!!!!

3 sweeties... all super sweet... can beat any others hands down anytime...

Imagine this... 2 groups of 3 people... and these 3 people look like each other... cool right~~

its like she got 2 others that look like her... 1 guy and 1 girl...

and i got 2 others that really look like me also... and its also 1 guy and 1 girl...

coincidental?? perhaps so... haha...can do pairing off liao... oh yar..and i went to the seminar today with my lookalike... hahah...cool~~

This is a correct statement:

MUSHYNESS IS THE FUNDAMENTAL TO ALL COURTSHIP

Very true leh... really think this author can be my buddy liao....partner-in-action perhaps...hehez....apparently he juz voiced my thoughts...

NICE GUYS FINISH LAST
By: Garrett Hols

It’s amazing that assholes can get girls. Actually, now that I think of it, it’s not that amazing. They are assholes at heart, but to meet girls they lavish their undying love. IT’S A CHARADE. They act nice, friendly, and they listen… until they get into what they’re after. Their prey thinks they are in love with them, however when they realize what assholes their predators really are, they pretend like the asshole is really nice inside. The girl tries to change the asshole into a nice guy, but assholes will always be assholes. She gets upset and goes to the nice guy to complain about the asshole. But she claims to love the asshole… now this is where the theory begins. She doesn’t want to look like she is easy so she wont dump the asshole right away, instead she will stay with the asshole. Girls are idiots. They don’t realize that the nice guy has been there all along. He never had to pretend to be a good guy to get girls because he is naturally like that. However, girls don’t see it for some reason or another. They look at the nice guy as a friend, a trusted companion to whom they can tell their sad story to about their asshole boyfriend. But the nice guy isn’t THAT naïve. He was trying to score with the girl he listens to all along. The problem is that since he is a nice guy he keeps listening. Since girls get attached to things that pay attention to them, they think of the nice guy as a friend. A FRIEND. They don’t say, “Oh he’s hot” or “I want to have his children” about the nice guy, they just want the emotional support. When they get the emotional support from the nice guy, they don’t need it from the asshole. The nice guy gets the shit end of the stick while the asshole gets all the action. I am starting to wonder if being a nice guy is really the route to take to get action… I have been down this path for all of my post-pubescent life and it has gotten me NOWHERE… at least not in the women department. Perhaps another reason why girls fall for the asshole is because assholes ignore the girl they are with. The women wonder, “Why isn’t he paying attention to me?” so they explore why. They poke and prod and get closer to the asshole. They start to get easier with each attempt to get closer. The asshole finally says, “I’ve let this beauty dangle long enough, time to boat this bass”. It is then he puts on his charade and the girl feels like she has won him… even thought all she has won is an asshole. Once you have gone down the path as a nice guy or a “listener” you can’t turn back. The girl will always go after the assholes because there are always nice guys there to listen. Once you realize that you are a “listener” you cant do anything about it… just pack up and close shop. There is no way you will get into her pants… ever. There is and never will be a situation where the nice guy will get the girl he has a crush on. It just doesn’t work like that. The girl wont “come to her senses” and realize what an asshole her boyfriend is like in the movies… instead she will just go after another asshole, and unless you stop being a nice guy, she will never go after you. Women complain that there are no nice guys in the world. Right. They are obviously not looking hard enough because there are nice guys EVERYWHERE!!!! Girls aren’t looking for nice guys… they say they are but they’re not. They are looking for the perfect asshole, but there is NO SUCH THING as the perfect asshole. All in all, the nice guy gets the shaft. To all the girls out there with boyfriends that don’t treat you with respect, that don’t listen to you, and that don’t care about you I say this; look next to you. The guy that has been standing next to you the whole time is the guy you have been looking for. He is what you want your asshole to be like. He knows more about you than you know about yourself… because he has listened to it all.

actually if got anything...whether big or small...can always approach me to discuss....u dun like smth...can always feel free to tok to me about...if i am in charge of it...i will make sure i change tat...there is nothing much of a problem in the world which there isnt a solution....there is a solution to everything...and pls dun ever feel paiseh or lose face...cos u can blardee hell tok to me about anything...even if i am not in charge...if i can help...i make sure i will help as much as i can...

so for example...i think i will write on the board tmr about the poster outside sc room...since i am in charge of it...i shud be fully responsible for it....and i am sure tat it is my wish to ask anyone for help...anyone not satisfied wif the photos can always tell me...i can juz simply take them down...if boss say tat she dun like the words...i make sure i get the whole thing down and redo it...simple as tat...

juz taking a break from the hectic schedule....gotta prepare for grad nite after promos end...den oso for O1...very impt ar...or else if its not good vv jialat leh....think gotta do both at the same time...or start grad nite abit early....den haf a break when its promos...

june and vanessa are really dears manz... whatever i need...they will just lend me...but they always laugh at me....haha cos i am funny...duh

i am a lonely boy... but how can that be?? i got my sister...i got my parents....i got my classmates...i got my fellow councillors...i got my soccer frens...i got my gong jiao buddies...i got the frens from other classes...i got frens from the outside world...i got my dear teachers...and i got myself....whew...sounds real cool rite...

tmr is teachers day...our 1st major event...hope it dun screw up...i am tired of screw ups liao...

hmm...i am easily stressed...and i am very vocal about me being stressed...haha...cool rite??

haiz....let me say some simple logic lar...

if ur fren actually can DOUBT u...or want to pick a quarrel wif u...ask u lar...is he/she a fren of urs?? no i dun think so...

and wad can u do if there is an arguement or quarrel btwn u and ur fren?? a lot of cases i haf seen is tat u will juz quarrel back...state ur pts...scold back tat person behind his/her back...say wadeva shit to make tat person looks really bad....

but....but....cant u juz talk things out?? look at things from every angle?? put urself in his/her shoes? its always better to haf a fren than an enemy...

okie...lets say...if u dun like someone....why the blardee shit do u gotta pick a fight wif him/her...why do u haf to argue wif tat person??? cant u ppl juz IGNORE?????

ignore ignore ignore ignore.........or at least...put on a farking fake mask on...be neutral wif him/her...he ask u ques..juz ans...other than tat...haf no involvement wif tat person la....

BUT PEOPLE JUZ CANT DO THAT???????

why cant they adopt a more heck care kinda attitude??? if pple scold u...why muz u scold back? cant u juz walk away...not tat u are a coward or loser...but if u scold back...it makes u look equally as bad as the person who scold u....and wad for may i ask????

was reading sooch's blog juz now...dunno whether she is saying about me anot...but really lar...its not i am too busy oso....but i think u nv find me leh....if u come find me...i will definitely make time for u...we can tok about any stuff....sometimes...i juz think its the change of environment...plus the few factors...like the promos...u and me are studying...i got council stuff...not as free as i am in the 1st 3 mths...

den about rose's....if she say the gifts she gave are being uncherished...den tat she gives gifts bcos she treasure frenships...den since ppl dun cherish ur gifts...dun haf to gif lar...if they are ur real fren...even if u dun gif them a gift even on their wedding day....they will still be ur frens.....its like...cant u juz treat everything normally....cos if there really no need for anything special...unless u want to gain 'extra' favour....den it will be like a responsibility already....why make ur life so hard....i will suggest juz treat everything normally...no need for gifts...go out den go out...true frens...frens who u know will be by ur side when u need them....will nv ever blame u for any mistakes u haf committed...(not tat i am asking u to go commit mistakes or anything to provoke them) but its like they will juz accept u for who u are....get me??

i think i need to get back to write my essay...tmr will be a long day....need to prepare gifts...den fri teachers day...me is runner...den after tat NEWater seminar...den sat testimonial soccer match for the J2s...den noon got AJ flea market....cool manz...fully packed....

okie....a few days gone...some things to update...

i am not buying a new phone liao...

went met yh, fred and fai tat day...played pool...nice to see them all again...

felt there's smth going btwn me and her...smth which we both dun even know...but its exciting la...

got a new bro and daughter...but juz now...when she put her hairband...saw how cute she was...

eh...teachers day coming soon...tmr staying back to prepare the gifts...haha...

oh yar lots of pple had asked...and all i answer now is "no time".

lottas probs in council...all come....all solved....tiring manz...

got back my 8250 liao....hols coming...going to study econs and lit...

thailand trip is confirmed....going to slp wif darren and screw his ass upside down...=p

got a few "frustrating" things to say later....

damn...i dunno wad phone to buy....

the pencil case dropped...its accidental...really...i dunno...

haha...damn cool leh....my icq icon at the bottom right corner of the screen has juz disappeared...but its still there when i click it...invisible sia.....stoning at home right now...been reading back the old old books i haf...enid blyton rulez manz...=pp but its really nice to see wad u haf been reading when u were younger...

chun juz called and asked me to help her wif some banner stuff...damn....when i am juz feeling the least energetic to do any work...but its okie lar...she cant go sch on mon and tues due to some french thingie i think...anyway its juz printing...simple job...but i need to study for chi test tmr oso...

and lynn juz sent a super sweet msg....=) hmmz...wad can i reply leh....

going to watch the badminton finals later...soon i mean....

bleah...the weather is damn hot...

oh noooo~!!! i just told jas my secret~!!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

Now i know i have true friends in rubin and kohgulan... they are really true friends...

rubin can actually sacriface going out wif del for lunch juz for our class interclass vball competition... few guys can do that...and he is not one tat is zong se qing you... definitely not... koh is also someone who qiang3 xing4 yong4...a true friend who you can place your trust in...i feel totally at ease with them... now i know liao... whenever i feel at ease wif someone... he/she will make a good buddy... when i can actually communicate to them properly... that's when i know they respect me...and i shud respect them too...and also to earn their respect... the others are juz mere passers-by i guess... u can actually see how i view u as in my way of talking to you...

The guys whom i kick the same ball with each day
Whom i wrestle and fight for fun thru the times
I don't see them much no more
Each one gone with a girl of their own
Having a life of their own
No time for each of us
Spare me the agony please
For i am blessed with others new

suddenly got lottas things to say... lemme jot it down 1st....the feli thingie...the song...the similarity and the life...and oso the bleah day...

ermm...1stly...think i haf changed so much emotionally... shud use the word stronger... cant explain why... perhaps its juz how life in me has taken me to and thru, and well... that day feli asked me...whether i will cry if she dies... i said i will...even use the words "of course...", but now thinking back...i dun think i will...maybe i shud juz say i cant...i can only say i will be hurt very deeply inside...but i wont cry...even if i want to...dunno why...think its how i am used to doing now...tough outside...tougher inside...only the weakest at the core...the insidest of the inside...i may cry in my heart...but dun think i can shed a tear...*shrugs* Dun ask me why....seems to me i face everything as though nothing else matters anymore much than my daily meals...if someone close by is gone... i will be very disappointed...maybe even to the extent of blaming the person for being selfish and to leave me here alone... damn... cant explain... pain on the inside... perhaps juz quiet on the outside...

hmm...think i found a reason for my quiet moments...when ppl ask me not to stone...and those "are you alrite" ques...but its always the "ever good...ever ready" ans...damn...think i am fake...but tat sounds bad...think i juz prefer keeping stuff to myself....but i cant blame myself for that..."for who you are...the pple ard u made u to be..."<--i think tats the reason...lost trust?? no one ever quite care?? or issit juz tat i dunwan others to worry?? cool~~ now i dunno the ans...a ques tat will remain unanswered...juz like many other things...or maybe if i try hard enuf, i will find out... but not now lar...no time, no energy, no strength left for this kinda minor stuff...well...juz let it be...emotionally-dead i guess....

hmmmz....but after writing this...dun quite agree wif it...its not emotionally dead lar...but its lesser on the sadness part...think i cant handle sadness tat well...thus i choose to put it aside...so i guess when u lose touch wif tat emotion of urs...u juz dun quite feel it anymore...

2ndly...the song...well...i dun think its tat possible... dun think so lar...how issit possible to continue to miss me when u are wif him...=)
the hope is there...always...burning...like the cathigh spirit and the cj flame...but its quite hard.. u see....=p

think its due to the similarities...hahah...it all leads sia...okie...
well there is: -stubborness
-keeping stuff to ourselves
-does not like to trouble others
-happy when others are happy
-thick-skinned when it comes to this
-very much mistaken(haha perhaps not lar...)

cool rite~~ thinking back...these few pts juz came up...

shitz...forgot wad i wanna say about life...erm...oh yar...actually looking at wad others are doing...its hard to find someone who actually plans activities in the sch...participates actively in sch events...like the newater seminar this coming fri...and also interclass vball competition...having oso a sports cca....plays a musical instrument...and learning dancing....plus having time for studies as well...erm....perhaps juz got no social life loh....heez.....seriously dying liao leh...juz want to say i got a lousy life lar...really dread going to sch on mon...cos its pia on the way till fri...and i really hate the feeling of piaing so hard....really got no more energy left....even though can slack and rest a lot on weekends...but when it end...it really is scary....but i gotta admit i am learning a lot a lot...really a lot....this period of time will always remain deep in my memories....haha i think i am a nutcase....and its so especially demanding and stressing when u keep on thinking of the thing u cant have...its always at the back of ur mind....and it juz adds to the...erm....juz adds to everything....

okie...today is a totally bleah day....indescribable....cos things that happened are so bleah...think its the guy up there...he is playing wif my life manz...1stly...watched the korean serial...2 of them...from 2.30 to 4.30....and both is soooooooooooooooooooooooo bleah...fark manz....haf missed a few of them liao...but today juz found the time to watch....usually i will love to watch romance drama...but after watching...it left a feeling at the end...when everything its so farking normal...and everything which i can actually do...but i CANT DO RIGHT NOW...its so bleah...esp when everything is so sweet...and u actually haf a sweet after-feeling...mixed wif regret and pain...not much pain lar...cant feel much of tat...but more on disappointment....den after that there is the sms....my life is so ironic manz...when some stuff is gone...and it shud be gone...it juz come back...esp at its most extremest...when actually the coming back has its most impact....its so bleah cos its actually not the person whom i will want to receive a sms from at tat time...and whoa...think its the guy up there...after tat its the song...the song juz came on....yes...from the radio la...was in laopeh's car when it came on...so i was starting to wonder whether the guy up there is really playing wif me or wad....den had a minor arguement wif laobu over the phone issue...nuthing much actually....den an idea of coming up wif charity funds for the sch actually pops up in my mind...cant believe i am actually thinking up these kinds of ideas...think i am really deprived...which i will of course do smth else to get rid of it...bleah....dun think ppl will understand wad the shit i am toking about...and dunwan anyone to care actually...need to write them down to reorganise my thoughts a bit...think i am kinda assured i got them down somewhere...cos somehow i haf this feeling i will lose my thoughts and feelings someday...haha...lame rite...cool~~

How much he regrets i don't know, he only knows how much i regret. He just simply don't know him and I.

Lets play the game like how Iago plays it with Othello...

but with my rules of course...=)

been night studying the past 2 nights... and staying until 10 each night... but it has been really tiring...considering it's 2 consecutive days and i've got pe today...wow...so actually i had been in school for 30 hrs for the past 2 days...hahah of course cannot qie with jiang lar... he everyday stays back... machiam not tired one... but anyway today is the last night studying day until after j2s promos...

quite okie lar... a few of us are always there...realised the crowd is always the same... the sc people...like shiying, ariel, sean, andrew, khairi, zijie, kenneth, me, trina, nic and cheryl... den j2s like jason... greg... the odac people...elise...oh yar~!! and rayner also...wahhh surely leh....he hardworking sia....stayed back for several nights leh...samantha also...netball girls like may, ky and daphne also machiam school is their 2nd home liao...

He looks back at the time and cries.

It's pretty awesome how you can get to know people so easily in school... just chatting up requires a wee bit of luck... other than that... it's all up to the person... basically everyone is very friendly lar... thus it makes the job easier...

but hahah... no no no...i am playing it hard manz... real hard... i want the feeling of being respected and treasured to be there...so that it can last...it's very important for me... thus i will do it that way...if not i know i will regret it again in the end...

cos she herself knows she is quite a 'hot property' in school... want her to know the feeling of chasing someone...or rather... perhaps in simpler terms meaning getting to know the person better...

edmond is basically pissed we are treated like lackeys...that's why lar... got to start talking to people again... change the teachers' mindset... and change the council's mindset as well... afterall its all the for the better of everyone...

Don't think i have the patience to wait... waited the other time... and it didn't quite happen the way i wanted it to be... don't think i got enough courage and perseverance to wait this time... and plesae...i ain't dumb... especially after i had done all the stuff before... you go tell me some other stuff... and not speaking directly doesn't help either... i understand lar... it's okie...

its amazing how khairi and me can really feel the same at the same time...we were doing nite study tat nite...and he juz suddenly looked up and said to me..."sometimes when u need someone there...you juz dun haf her..."....now i know study makes ppl miss others...

this 3 songs below...are dedicated to 3 diff ppl in my life....well...i hope it means smth...

He fights like how he always does.

Shooby dooby dooby doo woi

Shooby doo

Oh

Shooby doo dooby doo boi oi

Yeah, ah


Girl, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel

Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby

Shorty, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel

Girl, you’re my friend when I’m in need, lady


Life is one big party when you’re still young

But who’s gonna have your back when it’s all done

It’s all good when you’re little, you have pure fun

Can’t be a fool, son, what about the long run

Looking back Shorty always mention

Said me not giving her much attention

She was there through my incarceration

I wanna show the nation my appreciation


Girl, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel

Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby

Shorty, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel

Girl, you’re my friend when I’m in need, lady


You’re a queen and so you should be treated

Though you never get the lovin’ that you needed

Could have left, but I called and you heeded

Takin’ a beatin’, mission completed

Mama said that I and I dissed the program

Not the type to mess around with her emotion

But the feeling that I have for you is so strong

Been together so long and this could never be wrong


Girl, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel

Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

learning jay's rap ba wo hui lai le... got part of it liao...and also has been learning to handstand...injure a bit of my kneecap juz now...hahah hard lar...saw a guy did the move yest...so going to start by learning the move 1st...so right now...i juz entertain everyone wif my "dog peeing move"...=p

C'mon c'mon
Yeah
Can you feel me?
(Baby can you feel me?)
I've got something to say
Check it out
For all this time
I've been lovin' you girl
Oh yes I have
And ever since the day
You left me here alone
I've been trying to find
Oh, the reason why

So if I did
Something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end

And I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yes you are

I watched you go
You've taken
My heart with you
Oh yes you did
Every time
I tried to reach you
On the phone
Baby you're never there
Girl you're never home

So if I did something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end
No, no, no, no

I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yes you are

Maybe I didn't know
How to show it
And maybe
I didn't know
What to say
This time
I won't, this time
Then we can
Build our lives
Then we can
Be as one

I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me)
Oh yes you are

And I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side

geez...gone out wif jas, eve and eve's fren karen yest...went nydc to eat...eat until really full manz...den somehow its like everyone is attached now...gosh...haha but i am really happy...=)) seriously...after trying so hard...and saying so much...(manz...its so ironic and contradictory the both of them)...everyone gets up in the morn finding themselves attached....

anyway nvm about tat...oh yar...muz say its really pressurising to go out wif jas and eve...they can kill u manz...with their "You must take care of me" attitude....hehe really manz...its like might as well ask me go bang wall and die...i cant even take care of myself...actually can lar...but i dun like the extra burden.....hehez...=p so old liao still dunno how to take care of urselves...haiz...no wonder all want to be tais tais...

Now talking in #chs
Topic is 'No one wants to be with me, had to make my dreams come true, i'm a chinnie in a bottle, you gotta like what i do.'

hahah....its really amazing how ppl react...

was talking to khairi and nic tat day...were having a mini meeting wif the vp and she had gone out...we were saying smth like lets all juz go study human...the study of human...sounds cool rite....den the other guy got some lesson...den some ques pops up...i forgot when and wad liao...but got a bit of memory about tat at the back of my mind...its smth like how come smth like tis happen and wad will be the results...this issue touch a lot on human stuff...like responses...their immediate actions and reactions...so its really impossible to come up wif a standard answer as everyone is kinda diff...a list could be make out...but seriously there arent any definite answer....

so wad i am really saying is...whenever anything happens...look at it and ask urself whether its the work of human nature...if it is...no point bothering too much about it....cos in the end u will most probably not know wad the other party is thinking about...

actually its pretty much the case of misunderstandings tat i haf brought up sometime back....

heez....so tats how interesting humans are....

okie..i am back....for a while lar...

oh yar...my plan for weekdays until promos...8 hrs at home...14 hrs in sch...2 hrs transport....go figure out how it all sums up...its quite fun actually....

maybe not so for mon and wed....cos got cca...den shud be too tired oso...go home eat and slp better...

The hope in him still remains...like how it always does...

oh no....i am a senseless creature~!!! wahahaha...tis is part of a song tat i posted juz now in irc....wahahaha..quite cute...

lalalala~~ i am a senseless creature~!!! all ready for the senses~!!!! without doubt...the senses are goneeee~~~

He sees him at the other end, and her in the middle.

tehehehehe...cant believe it manz...but i am really happy...aiya actually can believe it lar...me getting more and more exaggerating leh...muz be the stress lar...heez cool~~ shiok...i've got a daughter liao~!!!!!!!!

i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry i am hungry ......hungry...

experiences of new stuff again tis 2 days...went into the archives room wif khairi and nic for a meeting wif the VP....cool...one day can actually talked to the 2 heads of the sch...

tired...hope to catch a nap b4 going out...preparing to take a break liao...but i dun mind going back sch at 7 for nite study...quite effective actually...bro paul mentioned about me tis morn...tat guy who left sch at 9pm was me...kinda reprimanded me yest for not listening to instructions as everyone is only supposed to leave at 10 if staying for nite study...but i gotta reach home by 10 so i gotta leave early...think the rule is dumb but i guess its all for the accounting of us lar...its van's bday yest...she going kream later...duno whether shud go join them...dear ar...quickly reply leh...

today's training was okie...its full game for us cos A. Ho said take a break...so we play full game...there were only 2 teams at 1st cos there were a few stuff going on in sch...like audition...inter-house bball...and AGMs....was in vince and brian's team...marc came late wif 4 others...think is wilvin they all...den kana a bit scolding...played in striker position...tot i played badly until brian told me juz now not bad...i was like kns loh...one shot only..and it ballooned....was partnering vince...den after tat they play 451...and guess wad...i was up against teh twin towers...whew manz..they think i owen ar...ganesh and sasi leh...fast and powerful...play wad shit...ben let in 3 goals...all long shots from kenneth...dunno lar...thought all those could be saved...

tot of the best team liao...

keeper sachin
def cedric, benedict, ganesh and nitin(is tat how u spell?)
mid calvin, brian, clarence and irfan
striker kenneth and vince

oh shit...midfield got too many...still got the guy from vince's class...marc...allan...
den def still got sasi...omar...
keeper got leon, paul and ben...all very good...at least xucun's standard...

wah...time to play championship manager again....

sat shud be having a practise session wif gary chen...really gotta pia...cos if we get in...only got one week to learn the moves...if we didnt...its okie to practise...cos juz like wad he said...practise makes perfect...and if we are to come up wif a perfect dance...now is the time to start...

now mass d/ling of hip hops...nice~

I A M B O R E D

argh damn...i shall juz decide on it and move on wif life...no more thinking...no more waiting...everything shall be juz like normal...

Gary Chen said smth today which make me think... and it is while i was thinking a lot a lot that time...piangz...

he said smth like this..."someone who actually thinks about the correct words to use during a conversation is someone who thinks a lot"...or smth like this lar...i forgot liao...den i think he ask me not to think too much...manz...i need to think lar...or else how to get everything done and right...or i think its smth like its very impressive to find someone who actually finds the correct words to use during a conversation... i mean its like i naturally want to bring my msg across...want to let the other party know wad i really want him to know...so the only way is the use the correct word and tone...i dunno lar...think i haf been thinking alot...seriously very tired now!! arghhh...why cant i go and slp ar?? think i got slping phobia manz...so late liao..den tmr got a long day....bleah~~

I repeated today what i said the other time when there was the breakdown in communication in council...i said " so this is how council works...?" i am being really truthful...i expected more from council...i expected respect to be shown by me...and naturally the ppl gotta do stuff to make me sjpw them...but so far...i muz say i havent shown enuf... if u are good enuf...i know u are good enuf...i will show u the necessary respect...ur words are more powerful than mine...i will then listen...

today... perhaps lets juz say i am not a good leader...but i haf learnt to put myself...or rather...others... including the exco member...the top 4...on the same level as i am...only having the necessary difference-in-post respect for them...that i will haf this courtesy to consult them...or rather they are of a higher rank than me..arghhh shit...having a bit of prob here expressing myself...as in the attitude will be diff when interacting in council matters wif them...but when i need to gif the necessary respect...i will...in order to achieve my goal...when i know i need someone to help me...i make sure i get him/her to help...and in order to do so...i muz convince him/her 1st rite...in order to do so...and the best possible way is to earn respect for urself...meaning...u show respect to earn respect...get it??

Well today... should be summarised in a few words here and there...

sch past by quickly...went council room...not much effort at learning the dance...but after tat everyone got active...nic almost gave up...i convince her not to...and its my turn to...but they convince me not to...well....i got really high hopes...always keeping a spot of hope at the back of my heart...but its like if doing smth...i expect wad i can do to wad my abilities can take me...perhaps khairi is taking too much control...but i trust him enuf to get things done...he is the sort of guy to get things done...i am only good at organising...tat means wad i told amy lee was wrong liao...i aint a finisher...more of a planner...seriously...i think my best skill is in communication...really...but its really contridictory...but however it can be real true...anyway back to the pt....everyone...almost lar...learn the whole song...we are doing hound dog...den only zijie and ee suan havent learnt...they gotta work really hard tmr...den pairing got a bit of prob...but settled tat liao...den the timing of the audition is changed...and i got soccer...i really do not want to be considered out of the team..tats why i make it compulsory for me to go tmr...really gotta...but the audition is at 3.30...really cannot make it...so i find adrian ho and tell him i will be late...in the end i decide to juz skip the audition and let subs take over me...jingle can do wif yoda for the audition...so in the end i wont be late somemore...shit manz...shudnt haf tell adrian ho i will be late...now he really got a bad impression of me as someone who is too busy and not being able to juggle my time....but i really want to be in the team...he told me i wud haf been if not for my other commitments...guess the main thing now is to convince him i can juggle me time...and be committed to soccer as well...he wants to see sincerity and commitment...well...i shall gif him all of that....

The big irony today is that...those tat try really hard...as in haf no qualms about performing...cant make it for auditions...and those who juz sui bian sui bian...are so free to be even on stand by to take over...but not all lar...really gotta thanks khairi, nic, gary, yoda, candice, cheryl and yihan for their 'action' support...thanks shiying oso for giving the 'moral talk' today wif me...not really wanting to gif up...juz need some encouragement from someone to like push on...i work this way lar...kinda like working for others instead for myself...hah its my way of working things lar...yar oso thanks for chereographing the moves for the 2nd song...think juz now saw u all doing the moves...really nice...after the audition if we get past...the real hard work starts...if u think tis is hard work...it hasnt even began...think i need to talk to everyone about stuff after we get in....1 whole week is wad we got...if we want to come up wif smth good...there's shiying's song and gary chen's...therefore firstly i need to look for support...den after tat put the plans into action...sat 1st training....damn lar...think i got lit stuff on sat...duno lar...den duno when muz do the make up gp test which i will miss tmr cos of ushering duty...seriously...i will really really like to find out who actually decides the names of activities...as in who shud be doing wad...seriously manz...
den erm...tmr sch ends at 12 i think...think they are going to take sometime to settle down again...shud haf at least one hr to practise everything...and if its possible...den gotta try out on the stage...the whole thing...lets juz say i know confirm will haf screw ups...but as long as we make it past the audition...which we haf a very high chance of...cos basically we are the judges ourselves....hahha...yar den as long as everyone keeps their high level of motivation and enthusiasm...its enuf...den the teachers shud be happy...

if only...edmond, yoda, candice, trina, ardi, jeanne and jingle can enthu abit...they can dance...and they are essential for a good performance...if only their enthusiasm and the ability to focus are as high as cheryl or gary...whom totally has no responsibilities for the outcome of the dance...these 2 i respect them to the utmost...ask them to dance...they try their best...no complaints...no shyness about dancing...cmon manz...wads so SCARY about performing?? they juz come for practise...do everything needed...teach others willingly...and may i ask who is asking them to do so?? no one!! they do it bcos they want to...and perhaps for me, khairi and nic...but the real reason i dunno why...

think like wad shiying said is correct...some ppl join council not knowing the right reason why they are joining...some ppl join council not knowing wad is expected of them... perhaps and like wad edmond said...this is all very normal...this kinda situation is happening everywhere...like among the teachers...there are the enthu ones...and there are oso the cant-be-bothered ones...there are oso principals like bro paul who are onz and enthu about stuff whereas there are some that sits ard all day and juz sign their big names.... how come they are ppl pushing others on...teaching them the right moves and there are oso others who juz sit there and read comics...cant be bothered wif stuff...say i dunwan to join.PERIOD. and zhao off to somewhere...where's tat spirit manz?? wad haf we learnt in LTC??? wad has stanely trained us to be?? a bunch of losers?? where is the unity????!!! he always asked us...where is the unity?? perhaps i guess its all for show during LTC and when we ran for council...cmon ppl manz...unite together...and u all will find out tat tis council term will be one of the most fulfilling u will ever experience...

did i hear students saying we joined sc is to get the points and the respect?? yes i did hear...and wad did i reply....i defended us...i haf faith in all of us...i am very frank...i say wad i really think...its like...i always haf tis hope...no matter wad i do...there will always be tis hope...even at its worst and dimmest pt...the hope will still be there...cos i place high hopes on others...and i make sure i try really hard...as much as i can to do things...the rest are simply up to the others...

its very simple....
how high my hope can go...tats how much the others can do...

There she is...
Sitting down there with her...
Eyes poring down at the books...
But...
I can see the glances occasionally...
I look away...
Almost blushing...
Hoping she didnt realise anything...
Yet wishing that perhaps...
I got enough guts like him...
Who went up right before her...
Having no concern for the eyes on him...
Only the main objective in his mind...
But i can sense a different motive...
All perhaps for nothing...
And i can predict a different happening...
Only time will tell...

Today...

Thought a lot...

Said a lot...

Done a lot...

My new mission: To prevent shuz from joining the nunnery at all costs.

i think i am damn bored manz...making fun of eunice and her best fren...gawain...

cool~~ did a lot a lot of thinking today...speaking to Gary Chen really makes me think a lot...he is like so wise...someone whom i can really interact well with...interesting...but really manz...kill my brain cells to talk to him...anyway....guess its much settled liao...performance and stuff...this time i really should assure myself that khairi is the khairi that i know of...but aiya...sometimes i am juz anxious tat everything goes on correctly and smoothly....its like there are little probs and loopholes here and there tat only i see...aiya i dunno whether the other got see anot...so i think about them...tok them out...sometimes i worry too much la...i can admit...but really...if u do things...gotta do it to wad ur abilities allow u to...

but judging from how things are going on now...it shud be okie...the 10 couples shall all come down tmr...learn the elvis song...den we present it for audition...den after tat if want den we shall add in one or two more songs...den maybe giselle will then join in...i shall juz leave everything to khairi....actually i havent been of a much help...now i understand why they didnt choose me as an exco member...seriously i think if there is a post which observe proceedings and activities...point out the bad pts and weaknesses in the process...i think i can fit into the role manz...=p

anyway back to the point...hope tmr everything shall move on smoothly...den hope miss lim gif us enuf faith and trust tat all we need is time...

got the pairings done oso...hahah i get to pair wif jingle~~ =) no lar..actually is not i choose...she asks to pair wif me...i was a bit shocked at 1st lar...cos i was pairing wif nic liao...den jingle oso was saying she didnt wan to dance....anyway i think khairi's taken...gary's taken...only left me wadz...keke...=pp....super bhb manz....sheesh i shall go and slp liao....

for everything that she lacks in...she compensates it back in another way...this kind of people i admire most...

although not say the chio kind...the demure look and the abilities to sing and dance make her a perfect companion...

questions and answers... questions and answers...

unasked and unanswered...

must get the ear piece soon from yf...or else use the 5510 also no use...

damn the SATS thingie manz...so mafan...den some of the stuff i oso dunno wad to put down...sianz...argh...den which date muz i do on?? wad if got prob???

mojo mojo mojo... where are you???

i think i look damn guai now wif my hair...but wait...gif me 2 weeks...or rather 3...den i will be a super paikia~!!! wahhahaha....(Dr. Evil's laughter)

lalalalala~~ actually u can ask me do i care??

and no sorry i dun care....heck care is all i care about doing... but maybe if you ask... i may just care...

promos coming...if u cant adapt to my way... although i can adapt to yours...

i can only say too bad...

too bad too bad too bad too bad....

the swing came today... assembled the whole thing up with laopeh just now... not bad... and i like the wood also...=) make the garden look more classy leh...

was watching tv last nite...till about 1 i think...title was yue liang de mi mi...meaning the secrets of the moon....fann wong got act in it...plus other foreign actors and actresses...the story is divided into a few diff plots...but wif one main theme of love...when the actress already loves this guy...some guy close to the guy will come along...and make the actress think about whether she has made the right choice in being wif the 1st guy...its really interesting to look at how each plot develops...almost really like in real life....

imagine u urself...having someone whom u are going to marry in 2 weeks time....although u know him/her for very long...things havent been much the same when u 2 started dating..probably cos he/she knows you both are getting married....then his/her best fren comes along...and amazes u...caught hold of ur total attention and u find urself falling in love wif tat person....u juz gotta make a choice i guess...

does her name start with L??

no...

does his name start with L??

yes...

geez...i am gay...

nv haf i come to such a spot where i cant do anything...

its almost like an island in the middle of an ocean...

went sch early in the morn today....for chereographing of the songs...khairi, candice, yoda and yihan came... done the elvis one and grease lightning...think not doing the fame cos gary say too fast....so shud be changing...either tat we do sclub 7 party...den nic better come up wif smth about the britney spears one...
zhao off at about 2...reached home pia my theory...done only till grade 3...heng after tat lesson only play the competition song....oh yar...i really love my part manz~!!!! its very very nice~!!!!
now at home studying...think i shud haf a game of wc afterwards...den its tv time....52 days to promos....

Now he simply stands there and not move.

sometimes...its not the best thing to move on with life... cos' it might be better to stand there and think about things... think about everything... perhaps about chances also...

Austin powers in totally corny~!! everyone muz go and watch~!!! even if u are sad...u will still luff until pengz manz....really~!!

sometimes its just not wise to know a person too well... because ppl tend to mind more about the weaknesses and flaws...

If he dare to issue the dare to me...i will make sure he will regret doing it...spas...

went to haf roti prata juz now~!!! hahah sooooooo full.....and i won 50cents juz now...hahahah....not really la...juz helping ber gain back 50cents...

Damn... this is not good... but anyway must be happy for fred~!!! hahahhah~!!! YAY~!!!!!!!!!! HOOORAYYYY~!!!!!! congrats fred....finally after such a long time....=)

Maybe i should not read the signs too much and proceed too fast, because i think if i go fast, i will not learn to treasure.

But what IF... that right from the start i should not even have tried???

I am eating vinegar... but i think it is more on fear factor...

tmr coming my house play mahjong?? wah surely leh...my house like some gambling den like dat....hahah but its alrite lar...

When someone brings up a point, why can't we just agree to it, keep quiet and work towards the idea?? Instead of just sitting there and not doing anything and yet commenting on how blah blah blah the thing is...

Tmr...gardening...most probably free the whole day after sch... but need to go for photo-taking 1st...oso muz remember to borrow fame from nic...

You will now find a different me, for i have changed for your sake. Please do not ever challenge me, for i fear that i will hurt you.

whoa manz...one of my longest list online in icq today....=)

You told me you will come,
I waited until the stars come up,
But the presence of you is non-existent,
I can only cry deep down inside,
In fear of awakening the dreams,
For they may just evaporate away.

haha okok...wad i said yest half correct....the costume thingie is off although darren brought 2 totally marvellous costume to sch...one is chi one and the other i think is malay one...i was wearing the malay one and rubin the other...damn nice can...if we go join confirm win one loh...but too bad we didnt hand in the description...think everyone's busy and thus our efficiency rate isnt tat high...its okie then....about the performance...if things go smoothly...i will be held as usual....arghhhhh....too little time....

manz.....i am STRESSED...

went queensway wif sy today...bought my predator boots(=)) and oso 2 t-shirts...saw darrel, fred and marc goh...cyn and ben came wif us as well...

time to go study for ting xie...manz...i cant believe its wed tmr liao...
oh yar...think the costume thingie for national day is gone...and oso the performance for teachers' day...

All say and no action make him empty.

yeah... hate me for all i care...

He hates you for not saying the truths.

flings = platonic sorta friendship with a bit of ‘special privileges’

For once, I want to love someone and be loved in returned. Really loved. Not just infatuated over, not just infatuating over.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......yam yam yammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm sengggggggggggggggggg......

yam yam yam yammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyam yammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm sengggggggg

yam yam yam yam yammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyam yam yammmmmmmmmmmmyam yammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm sengggggggggggg....

time to get married...

back from soccer...lost to those indians...my shoe spoilt...tmr's mon...

whoa ho....i am growing up as a human being...the processes of life is really really amazing... when you just think back like a few yrs ago...den a few mths ago...stuffs will be diff...

it is indeed heartbreaking to see others make fun of you over someone when you yourself got other problems to settle to... bleah my life's aimless....shit i am singing again....=)

khairi and me are saying the same thing... over and over again... hehe cool~~

"If you really love her, set her free
and if she returns in kind,
i'll know she be mine,
but tell me where do i start
coz it's breaking my heart,
I don't want to let her go"

I treasure you a lot... that is why i let you go...

whew....sounds totally dramatic rite...

damn...my leftsided pimple coming out again...

suddenly...my hope is juz gone like dat....whew...gone gone gone gone gone....

i think the reason for me to quit is the same as wad jiang had said... w/o time = no commitments... which means too bad...

2 nice guys... gone from the world... =p

going out for soccer soon...tonite's gonna study...

hahaha...let me tell u all a story about this boy call john... i am juz bored lar...but i dun think i haf the patience as like ariel who can finish telling the whole story...it will take about 15-20mins if it is said out...so its quite long...basically its juz a time-killing lame story...

Once upon a time...many many moons ago...there is this boy who is juz born... his parents named him john... so its like(oh shit...i forgot part of the story liao)...haiya forget it...its juz damn lame...

rubin bought 2 soft toys for wan ni sa(play wif sand)...den i kop the bear one...den the stupid tootz forgot to take her puppy...its still in my bag... thinks rubin's mad manz...or simply he's juz too rich...but hahah~~ my jediknight is better than him manz....=)

plucked out the retracting hair liao...whoa manz...like finally....

update on today...morn woke up go market there eat...didnt eat much cos after that went bishan mac...ms nathan treat den nic cant eat much...so i ate till quite full...went cpf building after tat...some learning journey thingie...at the end of the thing we had free snacks to eat...den they all damn thick skin...try to stuff the chips into the bag...den rubin went to buy disposable underwear....(hahah dun ask why)...went meridien wif nic, ken and rubin play lan...wc3 and starwars...fun leh...eunice and frens and ber came...walked to find fred and yf...den i zhao home...went for class...den after tat collect the beehoon go trina's house for del's farewell party...it was quite okie...stayed till the end...her house damn big and nice manz...got a trampolin of its own manz..den we all juz bounce bounce bounce on it....played bball there oso...den food and drinks...ariel told the lame john's story and played truth or dare...its all truth lar...they asked about her...i guess there's nothing to hide so i juz ans wadeva they asked....den they told ghost stories after tat while me and dennis play table tennis...i won him manz~!! haha...took henry's car out to amk station wif zijie...the rest which is del, sean and yihan took henry's car home...tired...going to slp liao....no one's online manz...

when you need me... i am there for you...
but when i need you... where are you?

i was singing and dancing in class today...and gave vanessa another of those sticky face of mine...hahah...den class is really fun nowadays manz...with ms nathan's corniness and everything...

i am lovesick....keke...=pp

i think its impossible...i don't have the luck of the 1st 3 months...

tmr having learning journey at cpf building at bishan there...ms nathan treating us breakfast at mac...damn nice manz...den after that think shud be come home...practise abit...den go for lessons...muz remember to get the beehoon after that...den go for del's farewell party....

Jiggles giggles...

heng today i picked fast and manage to get to do iago's soliloquy... dunno got how many...but it shud be simple...

whoa manz...1st time i see of this kind of thing...hair retraction manz...

lovaduck...

now i am really living my life to the fullest manz...everyday got things on...for the whole week manz....try squeezing in studies, proj, council programming, soccer, badminton, lan gaming, tests, lottas hmwk...really doing everything....there is no time to slack tat much...its like there is always smth at the back of my mind other than studies and exams...always smth tat needs to be done...like for now i still havent go and find out the prices of the roses...and whether can order them at a cheaper price...gotta keep it below 1 buck each...den oso can try to find out for custom made mose pads...manz...bro paul sure got ideas manz...

i did my 2.4 today...done 11.08....deprove manz from the trial run...think its bcos today when i run it was damn freaking hot....but i came in 1st from the class k...haha actually is alexius one..but he got backache and stitch...so got about 1130 i think....den minghee came in 9 smth...marc 1027 and jared 1120++...cathigh power sia...=)

didnt stay back in sch to study today as planned... firstly bcos actually since 3 days of tests had been stressing... and thought perhaps should go out... then anyway rubin asked... so i just anything loh... so went meridien with him and ken... whack for awhile... jedi knight and wc...

suddenly felt very alone...

finally got my tag...wore it for 2 days liao... feeling good with it on... but at the same time... the responsible part comes in... before this when i haven't got my tag... i didn't feel so much of keeping up my image but anyway, i think the practically the whole cj knows me as one of the worst un-councilling councillor...hahah~~ what a word... too much of a poseur huh... nah i don't pose much... but lots of people had seen me dance i think... and i think they are shocked... =p...or probably sing or do one of my lah lah's actions... sheeeesh...

rejected... he takes a step back...

this whole week brings a whole new chapter to my life... it is just the beginning...

The whole stretch of road lies ahead of him.

got this from khairi's blog...nice...

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for the words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]


Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]


What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

yest while i was slping...someone called manz...quite shitty...sorry lar..was tired yest so i was slping early...dunno who is she lar...i was mumbling thru oso...she was asking whether my council wants to buy some teachers' day card thingine...cmon manz...we got the gifts everything down already...now if add in the cards we gotta do the purposal again...are you mad?? so i juz anyhow blah my way thru....she ask me ask the prez...haha~~ so you think....i was too sleepy to talk anyway....one word of advice...call earlier next time...

i've done my othello essay....the analysis now trying to do...but dun really know how to...den there's econs mcq test tmr.....abit scared leh....

haha zijie dun say until like dat lar...i am juz bored lar...so need to write loh....anyway now arts student muz learn to write more...its juz simple wadz...coming to tis site...type down stuff and click the post button...tats all...=)