i was really contemplating to buy the 3650 juz now...i had the cash and i can trade in my t100 for 300 bucks...its damn good price can...but no i didnt la...i think i shud wait and see...ask ard abit more...and if i really want to trade in...i guess i muz bring my charger along oso rite...

no one can help....but fall in love wif u.....

congrats to gary's class...yes yes...u are definitely faster than us...it seems as though it was all decided from the 1st runner....gary passed 1st...den irfann...den alex...it ended tat way oso...

sports day was a disappointment for me...but it was one of the most eventful day...went sch wif di...den we are the last 2 to enter the gate b4 they closed it...it was damn funny...we saw ppl infront running in...den i told di tat we better run too...but den i oso said "but look at the huge mass of ppl behind us"...it seems as though 1/4 of the sch had juz gotten off 2 buses...ya so it was really a lot of ppl walking behind us...after we got in den they closed the gate...haha....whew...den swimming was sucky...actually expected it...i didnt had high expectations la...anyway...went dan ryans wif the class...ms nathan treat...had such a wonderful time....went there wif ken, adrianne and yvette den we bought lillies for lily...hahah...den everyone cudnt finish their food and was passing ard...den dunno they bought sunflowers for me and darren...=) den had such a fun time taking photos...take care lily...we will all miss u....den went watch movie wif di....1st time in my life walking ard town wif a sunflower...abit distinctive only...really eventful day la...had fun...

3rd pair of birds haf came to lay eggs in the nest liao....

homework on my list... geog tut...ant and cleo...presentation this thurs....

yeah....everyone check out the site on jiang's blog...its damn fun....

is that me or is that you? -angelia 6.21pm 31st may

a lot of thoughts in mind la......really a lot....

oh ya...shiying's bday today~!! Happy bday to u...

and happy belated bday to zijie...happy bday zijie....i will wish u again in sch...

not doing anything on my bday i guess...got geog till 630...need to present summary of a reading...anyway not in the mood for anything now...dunno why...erm....later going swimming wif dad i think...den dunno wad dad say muz go do smth about my bike's tires...if not smth serious will happen...den lesson...den meet di...need to do essay soon...tmr got match against damien....going swimming in the morn at yck oso wif the guys...nite study next week...

haiz...time's moving too fast....

yest went swensens...hahha...den end up very very tired...den meet joyce on the bus....its pretty amazing how tired she is and how she can still talk and talk and talk...i was like drained out...haha ya...i fell aslp at 845 and woke up at 10...still in my cj's uniform....

"u probably spoken to him more than u've ever spoke to him ur whole life in cj..."

yeah...guess its pretty true...but i know it will be improved...afterall i'm paired wif him for presentation...

Requiem for a Dream (Poem of the Century)



She’s not worth it. Simply put it that way.
Not anymore, at least.
She cannot understand how you feel. Neither do you, for her.
You’ve done something wrong. You’ll have to live with the aftermath.
You’ve search for forgiveness and repentance, you’ve found none.
You’ve tried, really hard. You’ve failed, pretty bad.
You just have to move on. You have no choice.
Just move on. Hurting her once doesn’t give her the right to hurt you continuously.
It’s just, not worth it.
You may cry out injustice, you may cry out in pain,
But by action or cause, she is no longer the one you once knew, or once loved.
It’s over, over.
She’s fine. She says so. Her friends say so. Her actions say so.
You may not think so,
But you’ll just have to accept it.
Forget her.
Forgive her.
But never hate her.
Never.

There is only one result for you both if you both continue on your path of destruction.

But yet, hold on to those moments, however fragmented they are now,
For they are all you’ve got left,
Memories of the past, memories of the laughter, the joy and the times spent.
The hopes that was once shared,
If we do not have faith or hope, then for what do we live?
An eternity or sorrow, pain and carnage?
No, we live in faith and will always hold hope close to u.


Those words once said,
Were they words of truth or lie, you may ask.
Too late now, know you must.
The ‘A’ levels, the mother-lode, the pinnacle, the greatest, highest summit,
The defining moment of the culmination of your life thus far,
To fail or do badly is not a choice,
You’ve done that a long time ago,
Last chance you now have,
One shot is all you’ve got.

Fear of defeat. Fear of loss. Fear of death.
Yet, it is
Fear that give men wings.

Love, pain, joy, sorrow, success and failure,
Facets of life we experience.
Each will always leave a mark, but the others will always change that.
Time is a commodity that we do not own.
It is our greatest resource, and our greatest enemy.
We cannot slow it, to bask in the warmth of victory,
Nor forward it, in times of pain.
It cannot be our master, we must control it.

What is then, the secret of life?
It is how you live it.
It truly doesn’t matter what you have left behind,
As long as you’ve done what was your fullest potential,
And at the end of the day, been able to answer for what you’ve done,
And when the end comes, hold no regrets and let your soul find solace.

This is a requiem,
A Requiem for a Dream.

-adapted from a fren's blog

no time to blog for the past week...busy busy busy....today's the 3rd month liao...yay...

Chapter VII
Simplicity
"Common Sense"

Plain old common sense should be used in making public decisions. There is an old adage, "give a man a fish and you feed him for a day, teach a man to fish and you feed him for life". Most governmental and charitable efforts at problem solving take the "give a fish" approach. Public problem solving efforts need to be refocused toward correcting the problem causing the undesirable circumstance, instead of treating the resulting symptoms. For example, the expanding of the focus for helping the disadvantaged to gaining self-sufficiency costs a little more in the short run, but pays off in the long term. Each displaced person who achieves self-sufficiency, results in multiple positive impacts on society, because there is a happy person no longer using public funds, while producing through earning a living, and contributing to the tax base.

Additionally, more effort should be devoted to avoid public problems. Public policy is unnecessarily focused on management by putting out fires, instead of making things fire proof. It is less costly in both Human and economic terms to avoid a problem, than to fix a problem. For example, it is easier to not pollute, than to clean up pollution. Public policies should take a proactive approach, instead of a reactive approach, whenever feasible. This is a simple matter of wise planning.

In sum, let's use wisdom to avoid problems, and to solve the problems not avoided. As our knowledge increases, we will have expanded capabilities for problem resolution and/or avoidance. For example, Humanity may discover most if not all harmful antisocial behavior is the result of mental disease, and may find a cure. Each such solution has a multiplier effect, in that people are no longer subjected to the negative effects of the problem solved, the quality of life is improved, and the resources that had been consumed because of the problem can be used in other ways to further improve the human condition.

-Adapted from THE ULTIMATE PHILOSOPHY - BOOK II The Light of Knowledge

hey check out this site manz...i think its even more full of shit than me...

http://users.erols.com/jonwill/

yes yes...indeed i am getting older soon...time to go take my basic theory driving test....hahah

A story of a new policeman

One great day...this guy called ah hock finally graduate from the police academy...he's damn proud to be a police officer now...so wearing tat smart police uniform...he decides to go and watch a movie...when he reaches the cinema...he checks the time and say...ahhh i will watch tat...and so he went to queue up to buy a ticket for himself...the guy infront of him upon seeing him asked him...new policeman ar??...ah hock is surprised tat guy will know and ask him how he knows...tat guy replied...cos old policeman never queue up and buy tix...ah hock now embarrassed...immediately went up to the counter and ask for the tix he wants...the ticket auntie den ask him...new policeman ar?? ah hock again was surprised and ask how she knows...she replied...cos old policeman never buys any tix for a show...ah hock den left and went in straight into the cinema w/o a tix...he den went and took a seat next to this chiobu...the chiobu seeing him quickly ask him...new cop ar?? ah hock den say ya...the chiobu den replied...cos old policeman only take those seats on the 2nd level...ah hock quickly left and went upstairs...when he reaches the 2nd level...he saw a lot of old policeman...sitting down comfortably in a seat...he proceeded to watch the movie...halfway thru the movie...ah hock needed to pee...so he quickly went to the toilet...outside the toilet...the cleaner auntie ask him...new mata ar?? ah hock replied...eh auntie...how u know ar?? the auntie after giving a grin said...cos old mata all juz pee inside the cinema whenever they want to...so ah hock went back into the cinema and unzipped his pants...and pee-ed....the guy down there immediately shouted...oei stupid new policeman~!!! ah hock now ashamed by his actions quickly zipped up his pants and kept quiet...the guy down there den shouted again...u think i dunno u new cop ar...all ur water shoot on me loh...den only old cops spray when they pee...

later going watch drama production....go lily go~!!! put up a hell of a show k...haha and i cant wait to see kim as a ghost....

went for the sports heats yest...haha...exciting sia...jesse and tat ac runner cudnt go cos of rugby match...so 4X100 guys short of 2 guys...i helped them run...den still short of 1 guy...asked ariel...but got found out by mr edison...so luckily the smart me tot of darren...den came up wif some bullshit about darren changing in the toilet...in the end asked darren act as cover...den kenneth wong ran for us....got 2nd k...and the timing not very slow hor...about 53secs....suddenly i feel like running...if swim i oso dunno whether tat darren can make it anot...den i oso not sure of elvyn's standard...

alex 1st runner...tat ac j1 guy 2nd...me 3rd...ken 4th....shud be able to get a medal....
me 1st swimmer...elvyn 2nd...darren 3rd....rubin 4th....not sure can get medal anot...

oh screw la...i think i shud go and play games...or maybe join cheerleading...

i think u shud stay away from me...u are kinda affecting me...i know i shudnt let u...but u are...so pls dun mind me if i dun talk to u tat much...or juz stay outta ur way...u said she will affect me...but i think u are affecting even more...sorry gal....

erm...all of them agreed...and if a majority agree...i suppose we can all agree to tat also rite?

if u are bad...everyone can see...

upcoming events....nominees' campaign week...and speech...and oh ya...bin's and fred's bday~!!! haha...and erm...ya my bday~!!! yay finally 18....when i was younger...and i heard of ppl who are 18...i am like...wah those ppl are quite old and matured and can haf their own life and stuff...ya...haha...and qoo's and han's 1 yr...=) so happy for them....den sports day...swimming again.....cant swim liao...perhaps will float all the way to the other side....den rayner's party....everyone go k?? go support him....haha...tat crazy ass go book embassy...so freaking exp...

i think i will work in the PR sector in the future....getting ur msg across to someone is not easy...tat can be shown yest by my mum and dad...it was a total miscommunication....

now i understand abit more about myself again...perhaps i see the importance of getting my point across during some conversations and whereas some are juz mere "in need for words"...thus conversation ensues...which maybe i see no point in....thus i refuse to...erm...maybe not refuse to...but at the back of my mind juz simply no desire to communicate...ermm...now tat explains me having no qualms being a loner.....

erm...i am confusing myself....LOL.....oh ya...this whole week had been hectic...and i hope aaron's grp pull thru the presentation....haiz...i miss running for council again....haha....approximately 3 weeks to prepare for mid yr....after minusing break and stuff....die......

thanks ken and di for coming yest to support me....thanks all tat congratulate me as well....went to see joyce ballet at nite...she's good la ken....u go tiptoe ard la...think so simple meh....erm...when i see those guys dance...sometimes i juz want to learn more stuff...jealous tat ppl like jason can go yfc...envy those breakdancers at the underground walkway to esplanade...or even tat chinese kid who plays a role in Oliver....

there really is a lot of things in life....yeah...live happily peepz....

oh ya~!!! YAY~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOOOOOORRRRAYYYYYYY~!!!! we got into the finals~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

though we performed lousily...not as good as wad we all hoped for...perhaps as wad laoshi explained...we managed to get into the top 4....if life fair like dat....some grps performed much better....even the senior category...the lady in pink shud haf gotten in but she didnt...and someone whom laoshi tot was lousy got in...

anyway... =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

told di tat day....if u are someone wif no criticisms and no comments to anything...perhaps even making u sound senile....u can be the most innocent and beautiful thing on earth....

only greedy ppl know who's the greediest...
only hypocrites know who are the hypocrites...

perhaps tats why catholics and christians always say Jesus treats all equally...

wad weaknesses u know others possess of....u definitely possess them as well....

went for religion class tat day...it was a musical put up my a catholic group...brings back memories of xmas play again....tat xmas play period is one of the most memorable i swear....i wanna do it again~!!!!! hahaha....anyway...kenneth talks about faith too...my faith lies in myself....i hope to achieve goodness....may all religions succeed in their faith and attain wad they hope for.....

she wont last long wif tat attitude of hers...a bit disappointed though....and perhaps i shud stop caring...cos i think i am pressurising her off....

capable but no discipline...whew...wad a whole load of compliments i gave....

didnt go for gm today...would go if there wasnt tournie today...cos the j1s going...hope ardi put me in grp 1....gotta find out wad happened tmr...or perhaps i call them later...
erm...days passing very fast now...i changed again...can see...erm....last nov and now i am diff....went to watch x men tat day...quite ok la...but wasnt as good as i expect...story plot a bit funny....juz proving tat there will be x men 3....khairi's bday today...happy bday mud....too bad i cant throw flour at u today....
rena turned and smiled at me yest....feeling amused...she doesnt even know me until the day she asked about council...ya update about recent shit...erm...went tekong yest....cant wait to get into ns now....so fun u know....den went for dinner...sent joyce home...she stays at where fiona stays...gotta go eat dinner liao....take care peepz...

looking at them....noticing them...yea close...close frens??? i am a bit confused about close frens btwn a guy and a gal...its hard u know...but possible...examples shown in fact...but at this age it all comes down to in the end they will juz end up having sex....o_O

tired liao...arm aching....strained tat day....

we lost to jj today...so sad....i played like shit...at least aloy won...

obstinate...such a small punny thing....bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and bark and...ya...and it juz refuses to gif up...picking on smth tat it cant even conquer...its like wad dunno who say...dun hunt wad u cant kill....but perhaps it is juz dumb....