Perception is bound to change.

Anyway, i have been slacking and there have been a lot of shows on tv. Erm... oh ya... had a wonderful time yesterday... caught Sinbad which enhanced one of more points that in a relationship, it is bound to changes anytime. But if that guy is my best friend and i know him completely, then i see no wrong in that because just like the movie, i will like her to follow her heart.

Read the newspaper... a lot a lot of stuff on the CPF cut... well... could not make out what they are actually saying... my economics is not that fantastic so ya...

Been going to lots of places lately.

Oh ya... and something happened that made dreams seemed like realities, and that i am confused now between what is dream and what is real. Hahaha... die liao... it is really muddled up... it is like... when things happen in real life... it seems you have experienced them before... and in dreams... you are actually scare of doing things as if they are real... because you are supposed to like... just do anything or feel freely during dreams... and not get stressed over them... hahaha... oh well...

Have a good day on teacher's day~!!!!

I have faith in myself. Faith that i am able to do things that i am capable and also realistic of. Ermmm... actually thinking about it... i don't exactly know what faith is. I can have faith in this, have faith in that. Then perhaps the next day my faith for this has decreased and faith for that has increased. However, without doubt, i have faith in myself.

Well... i have beliefs too ar... haha... erm... a lot a lot such that this is this and that is that loh...

Ya... definitely having them makes me stronger... but my question still is that is it only with God then i will possess them?

If the answer is no... then the next question will be that... what is the purpose of worship?

"there are many purposes and aims in life. but are they achievable?" They are achievable if you work hard enough. They are not achievable if you don't work hard enough. Or are you trying to say that... erm... they are MORE achievable if i believe in God? I guess reality comes into the picture. Let us all be realistic la... if i do not study hard enough, how am i going to get the grades that i want? Of course if i do not study, i will get sucky grades. No one else to blame except myself, right? If i do not try hard enough and reach out to the whole world and ask them to stop fighting, i will never achieve world peace. If i do not reach out to others and make them realise who they are, then i will never be able to see myself helping them find their inner self. They all make sense don't they?

I am definitely susceptible to falter. If i don't sleep enough of course i will not have the energy to do things i want. I will fail and not succeed in my tasks. Unless it is fate, which i put simply as accidents, i will falter. But does God make me invincible?

I have so many cases and examples of people faltering. They have a religion each. Haiz... i just don't know la.... i don't know what is the purpose of this, purpose of that... am i right or are you right...

haha... humans... read a book about Wisely. About outer beings coming to the Earth. They were actually thinking of taking over earth and its men. But they did not. Why? Because after they landed, they found out that man is so backwards and lacks the 'depth' that the outer beings possess... sad ain't it? But perhaps it really happened... and it kind of saved us.

I've got bad experiences, maybe not traumatic ones. My parents are alive and well. My friends are fine. I'm quite ok too. I think i am in no position to say about this. I guess i am who i am now after all these experiences, including good ones too... and i have quite picked myself up after the bad experiences. Erm... haven't been in a depression for quite sometime. Have i? I think i am quite happy all the time. Perhaps it is just how you look at things la... and i might be more open towards the things i've gone through.

I mean... its like... if it is like this... then like this loh... if it is like that... then like that la... what can you do about it if it is already like this? Just accept it loh... since i would had done what i could before things had happened. Unless again... it is accidents which i cannot control... then i will say it is fate loh...

"I am infinitely more capable than I believe everytime I take a dump. More than I thought always seems to come out. Curious."

Hahahaha!! LOL!! Funny shit!!!

Going to get my certificate and stuff later. Watch a movie and have dinner. Quit school. Jump from my room's window. And end up with a broken leg.

I think i should follow the norm and start stressing on how i stressed and suicidal and how close to the verge of giving up i am at. Maybe that will work. Perhaps sometimes a change in attitude will change everything as well. Whoa... i just saw on tv some guy got sucked up into the plane's... erm... i don't know what... you know those things on the wings... ya... they are the engines right?

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Stalking out of the plains, attacking with gilded boxing gloves, cometh Lah! And he gives a gutteral cry: "I'm going to fuck you past the point of no return, then bake cookies!!"

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wah... lol...i swear this is damn funny...

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how true... for it has never fully heal...

Motivated again.

Yesterday while at J8, at the basement where the florist is, there was this crazy hell of a mad looney woman screaming and shouting and crying and blabbering non stop. Could not really hear what she was saying but she was standing outside this photo shop, so i supposed that perhaps she got cheated or smth, like missing photos or more expensive or whatever la. But after that heard that it was that the woman was scolding another woman, and that her husband had been womanising. Well... so perhaps that woman had gotten a PI and had taken a bit of photos of her husband and another woman... so ya... but she was really extreme loh... attracted a crowd... even the police came...

All these indulgence isn't that good. Left with not much money after having quite a bit at the start of the week.

I went back to Cathigh just now with the guys. Left CJ at about 10 plus with rayner, xucun and vincent and took cab down. The new building really is damn nice manz... cant wait to see it next year... We went to find the teachers loh... Sing Gee, krishnan, sok ching... I think they must be quite pleased to see us... Saw Yang lao peh also... very tempted to tell him "shi jian bu duo le... bu yao yaya" haha... Then the rest of the guys came... made a hell of a din while walking out... oh ya... played soccer as well... haiz... those days are just gone gone gone gone gone... but i am damn proud of being a "cathigh one" leh... haha...

"With the loss of belief in 'God', man's life is regarded as purposeless and meaningless."

huh... I do not quite get it... you mean without God, then i am without a purpose or a meaning in life? Is that what you are trying to say? But then, I have a life which has many purposes. I aim to study well, get a nice job, take my salary and have a good life. I want to make people happy. I want to let them know the true meaning of life. I want to end all sufferings on earth. Aren't those purposes or meanings in life? Of course must add in the parts about being good, honest, open-minded, serious, generous, fillial, trustworthy, helpful and blah blah blah... i know all these... but is it that without God, i will not know what are these good points or that i wont possess them or that i will not be able to fulfil what i want to? By the way, i am a free thinker and i do not hate or go against God. It is just that i need clarification i guess.

But i think the arrogant side of me has gotten inside when i re-read the statement above. I mean... ok la... it is so insulting and degrading for me if it is to say that my life is purposeless and meaningless.

Erm... if i do not believe in God, am i going against or hating him?

I have so many purposes in life... so many aims... and so are you saying that it is God who, without any of my knowledge or notice, influences what i am thinking and makes me have these purposes in life?

If... that is a yes... then i will choose to believe rather in myself.

If the answer is a no... then may i ask for the validity of the statement above please... thank you...

(The above version is a very mild one... i guess i am really in search of clarification...i do not want to "bang bang bang" then "no... i still do not think so...")

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Date	December 15, 2019
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i tried out all the names and i liked this the most... haha...i hope this agent M is some hot and mysterious bitch.............haiz....things you do when you are utterly bored and starving...

I just downloaded 2 awesome games~!!! Haha... not exactly awesome la... but playable... one is about holding a guard post in a desert and fight off whatever shit that comes your way... these include troops, helicopters and tanks... well... you have got a those stuck-to-the-ground gun and 10 or so missles which are highly destructive. The other game is about robotics. You know... those kind of small little machines that you control and let loose in an arena to fight other moron's toys... too bad i know nuts about building them, so had to use those defaulted ones. Very realistic.

I hope i receive the stuff fast... can't hold it on any longer...

I've got a lot of question on religion. Is there a need for religion? Ever wonder where religion started from? Ever thought of the evolution of religions that had taken place throughout the years??

I thought... erm... they are somewhat different now and then... and basically... i just do not like the idea of believing in something that lacks a base to it... something that i cant based proof on...

Daniel Soh is one cool ass. Imagine him going around shouting "First bell!!! first bell!!! first bell!!!" when the school's bell not working.

Desperately in need of stress-remover.

whoa~!! I swear brother just did a f**kwittage... it is the coolest move on earth manz... and it is letting us all go at 9 in the morning because there isn't electricity in the school... actually before that edmund and me were chanting "half day half day half day~!!" But haha... we got more than that... cheers to brother...

Well... went to amk library to study... did lots of plath... photocopy some stuff for caretaker and learnt more about kean bu, rachel and melissa.

Really really hungry now... but i ate a cheese and mushroom sandwich just now... arrgghh... i shall go and sleep...

in sch now wif the stupid kim and vanny opposite me...

http://www.miniclip.com/Homepage.htm

Play the trial bike game... it is really good i think... too bad i cant play the full version...

Econs mock MCQ and DRQ tomorrow morning.
2 1/2 essays to complete.
Study.

Wah... i swear Lynn is damn damn funny... like hilarious... Lynn... keep the comedy up manz~!!! The next comical oscar award will be yours~!! Haha~!!

Rubin today called me... erm... something like "the centre of non-stop fascination"... is it correct?? i don't know la... Though i think it's really true and the idea is somewhere there... haha... I am the living constantly-being-fascinated being~!!!

It's true... It's damn true...

I do not know why i am so curious. Everytime someone says something, i will have this urge to get to the bottom of it, if not get the details of it. Others can understand and accept what is said, but i cannot. I need to know how, why, when and where. Sometimes, i get very angry with my inquisitiveness because of the disappointment it brings.

I figure that this may be due to the need for proof, for the thing to have a base, to be able to support it. I guess i just do not like baseless gossip.

Girls are pretty poor things i think... in any aspects you can think of...

Time, or rather, passing time has now sort of stagnated. It has became something which is like there, but not there. It is just simply fast la... as if ya... i've talked about it before.

Finally i've got enough motivation to go and buy a bike, a good one... haha... it's one of my dreams actually...

Beng and Seng were excited and locked the car in a hurry, forgetting to remove the key which was in the ignition. Realizing the mistake, Beng asked, 'Why don't we get a coat hanger to open it.'

'No, that won't work' answered Seng. 'People will think we're trying to break in.'

Then Beng suggested, 'What if we use a pocket knife to cut Around the rubber, then stick a finger in and pull up the lock?'

'No,' said Seng. 'People will think we're too dumb not to use a Coat hanger.'

The kan cheong Beng shouted, 'we'd better think of something fast. It's starting to rain and the sunroof is open!'

Ah Beng ordered a pizza and the waitress asked if she should cut It in six or twelve pieces.

Six, please. I could never eat twelve pieces.

To impress his date, the young man took her to a very chic Italian restaurant. After sipping some fine wine, he picked up the menu and ordered. "We'll have the Giuseppe Spomdalucci," he said. "Sorry, sir," said the waiter. "That's the owner."

A question to ponder: For how much money will you be bribed into playing a ego-bruising trick on your best friend?

my answer will be an amount of money that can allow me to hire a professional killer to kaboom that briber's ass will be enough.

Will you let religion get in the way of your love life?

Especially when you have your kids' interest at heart.

How could a person be so 'bastardly' and immatured in his writing when his behaviour was somewhat normal?

and...

How can a person's way of writing changed when his behaviour is still similar to the past?

I refer to behaviour as 'outer' behaviour, what people can see.

However, as thinking is linked closely with writing and behaviour, i think the only mindset changes, not affecting behaviour at all. Sounds totally cheem but it all quite made sense to me. Acting and behaving, thinking and writing, it was all very jumbled up. A muddle. And erm... i guess i got it sorted out a bit.

Today i said "hypocritical" in Mr. Kwan's class... how ironic!!

As i mentioned before, it takes one to know one. I am a hypocrite, or rather, if one can another is a hypocrite, he is most likely one too.

I am sure Mother Theresa knew who around her had the kindest hearts.

I think i will do well in the newly opened sports academy. My interest clearly lies there.

I just read Lynn's blog and well... i just learnt a new side of her i guess. The impression of carefree attitude plus 'yoyo' character kind of diminished slightly. I love that photo that she put up... haha... funky gal~!!

Hai... dreamer ar... sometimes i just wish that you will consider everything again, and perhaps there might be hope.

The 'blaster worm' virus is irritating me, although not to much of an extent. However, i need to download this patch now, in addition to this security package which i think should be useful. It's slowing the computer down, but what the heck.

I shall write proper english from now on. With inclusion of sounds i make and a bit of singlish too.

argghh... the past is such a turn off...

8. When your friend inserts his fare card into the gates and is about to enter, swing your hand past his gate. This will activate the motion detector, thus making it shut on your friend’s hips. Trust me, it’s fun to see the reaction on your friend’s face.
7. When MRT approaches the station, push your friend forward and immediately pull him back. The sudden adrenaline rush will be very shiok for him/her.
6. While your friend is peeing into the urinal, shake him up, down, left, right, center. As a last finishing move, push his ass into the urinal and make him feel his penis touch the cold, hard urinal. Due to severe movement, your friend will halt the urination process, leading to a very uncomfortable sensation (tried stopping halfway?). Do this many times and your friend is guaranteed to have bladder stones.
5. This cheap thrill has to be done with many friends. Ask them to sit alongside both sides of a corridor. When a person walks through this formation, proceed to clap and cheer (wolf whistles?) like you would do at a football match. Kallang wave also can. The stranger who walked past would feel very intimidated and will have thought that his fly was open.
4. When your friend boards a bus and puts his fare card into the validator, quickly press the other buttons that have no options. A message, “Wrong button pressed” will appear. Card is then rejected and has to be inserted again. This allows you to overtake him/her into finding a seat.
3. During your friend’s birthday, follow him into the toilet. During his most vulnerable moment, ambush him and spray all sorts of spices you can get onto Mr Weener. Examples of spices are curry powder and chili sauce from canteen auntie. If desperate, Kit Kat will do. Rashes soon appear on cock. Better than sex.
2. Only for girls and cross-dressers: Pull up bra strap and release. Repeating this action will produce a “piak piak” effect. Sounds better than Bach's Brandenburg Concerto No. 3.
1. Go up to a Fat Ah-lian and shout in her face, “Fat Ah-lian!!!”

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erm...yeah i survived this week...

gp mock paper...again...

LXG...oh ya...realised i am a frequent movie-goer...9 movies in 2 months...1.smth in a week...

man u bought c. ronaldo..yay was damn happy bout it... he's good manz...kleberson's good too...but i think d. bellion sucks...t.howards good too... but too bad i dun haf sports channel...

watched real played against hong kong...real is the team now in the world to beat manz...they can actually slack in defence bcos they know freaking well that they can score goals easily...i see r.carlos and salgado making the opposition half their own territory manz...and zidane...i dunno wad r his legs made off...the control...absolutely superb...

sch had interclass street soccer...went to watch...2 good teams i saw were vince's...got him prem, irfann and kumaran...good la...and oso t27...clarence, mark they all....

thanks jiang again for the car ride home...sorry for being quiet...i wasnt prepared to speak to u sitting at the front seat...and the ride was kinda fast oso...so b4 i knew it....i was home already...

and...if a person is bad...everyone can see...if a person is neutral...everyone can see too...and if a person is good...not all the ppl can see...

going to change my plan to starhub's...more worth it....esp the 600 free sms and free incoming...

a gal from my sch passed away...my condolences...

career fair was nice...think my interest lies in hospitality....

i was extremely happy that i feel asleep today.

marian chong to the rescue once again~!!!!

Oh ya... new term of the week... metrosexual~!!! haha...

i think i have a bit of metrosexualism in me.... so all the gals out there...esp ppl like minsi, jingle, candice, michelle and whoever that calls me vain...i am perfectly straight by the way....i guess the term(its in today's life section in the Sunday Times) explains everything.

It's just that sometimes i do not pay as much attention to things that i should, perhaps that is why i could not perform at my best. However sometimes owing to the capabilities that i possess, paying attention to too many things make me not as good.

Oh no. Publish error.

The things which i do are very funny... so i cannot understand them sometimes..

Its like yest at aranda.. my sis and i were at the pool then i suddenly told her..."i think i am a fish"

i think... i am behind time....

but...i've got...all my stuff ready....

geofiles will be my next geog textbook...

its like a reminder of marian chong in sec sch days...

haha...i said oh well...

i think by the age of 30...i wont get surprised anymore...

a person who laughs too much and get humoured by most of the things are likely to be a retard...

i might be a retard...

=)

seen my smile b4 rite?? yeah...its appearing again bcos of dreams...

studying lit has changed me...especially pinter.... i think it shud be the constant analysing and characterisation that make me more psychological inclined...
council and the various competition and performance have changed me... fear and nervousness is no longer as big...
meeting di has changed me too...=x

i think i am too self conscious... am i??? am i am i am i????????????

u know...if i juz take my dad's car to sch every now and then...no teacher will find out tat i am late...cos i will reach at 805...den ya...u can guess the rest urself...

i juz found a trial bike game....its damn realistic and fun....whoa manz...i love games like this....

dream-searching gal: eh...i dunno wad to say...haha...ya la true la...i've been kinda busy lately oso...sorry manz...but i am sure u know so many others tat they will push u on...and stuff u said la...about the holding u tight tat one...erm..u ask ur brother la....haha...

erm...experienced some dramatic events lately....still okie la....

watching the show which andrea de cruz and rayson tan acted as husband and wife....haha...how things haf changed manz...

i think fear is one of the worst things in life...if u are fearful...there's a lot of things which u can do and achieve....

juz finished reading the story on sy's blog...its indeed touching...but abit dumb la...i wudnt haf done alot of the things the characters haf done...