Blame yourself for the mistakes you have committed.
Blame yourself if you ever suffer.
Blame yourself also for negative feelings you felt.

Cos i believe you are totally in control of your life. Nobody ask you to feel sad. You can feel happy even though you are sad, cos you should be happy for others who are happier than you. Nobody ask you to feel happy too. Even though you are happy, you can be sad too, cos others are not as happy as you. Indeed, you should be sad for them.

i really wish i can have a extra enthu and motivated partner for O2....really manz....then i wont have to try so hard...cos i know i cant lead a group.

Bizarre Love Triangle... you were singing it that day...

kenneth and i haf been churning out poems....full of shit ones...but pretty good k....when each one is done in a minute....can write book liao lo....ahhah...

Tell me, can i taste your lips?
So tempting...

tmr got friendly against tp...juz realised tat i cant go for gm then...hahah...

i am the ultimate bug killer....any bug tat is inside my room and within my scope of vision shall die....if not trapped...juz like the white moth tat i sprayed baygon wif...it flew into my light...and cudnt came out...wahahaha....dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!!!! u can practically see dead bugs everywhere.....=)

i hate bugs~!!!!

the ePic@Home looks dangerous leh...haha tat camera thingie...but its kinda sweet oso....

Hahaha.... lust and the laundry man....

u gotta wash ur dirty clothes and fold the clothes....juz for sex...

Michael Jackson... Sympathy or Hatred?

wads the point of getting so many surgeries?? he looks so cute when young...can sing can perform can attract crowds can liao...
Prejudice....casted away....a misunderstood? an eccentric recluse...sharing his bed wif kids is wrong?? it's indeed one of the best thing in the world...

wahaha....tiger woods got pissed bcos someone's phone rang....

oh man...where's the image??

and ya so...wad can women do about it when men will not commit...

The first order of business is to communicate(yeah!). Get to the core of the issue. Find out what he is thinking and why he is reluctant to commit. Once you know, you can make the decision as to whether or not you think he will change. If you feel he just needs time, give him lots of freedom and treat him well. Do not rush or push him. Let him decide when he is ready and, in the meantime, appreciatiate and enjoy your own freedom. If he keeps backing off and will not commit, you will need to make a decision. Pick a date, it could be at the three or four-month mark, when you will leave if he has not committed. Let him know your intentions. When the date comes, leave. Do not waiver. After all, why be with somebody who does not want to be with you?
The longer you allow the situation to drag on, the harder it will be terminating the relationship. And, you are losing the opportunity to meet someone else. While there is a chance he may realise that life with you is more important than whatever it was that kept him from committing, do not count on it. Once you have said "goodbye", understand that he is likely to be gone forever.

saw a few very interesting articles in weekend Today...didnt know they actually got stuff like dat....anyway...this article entitled "Why men will not commit... and what women can do about it"

You are dating a nice man and the two of you have fun together. You like him, he seems to like you. One night, over a glass of wine, you casually mention a future togther. He drops a bombshell by telling you he does not want a committed relationship. What's going on? Here are some reasons...

1) He hasnt healed from losing a former love. In his book, Mars and Venus Starting Over John Gray describes the four critical phases of healing. He warns that if people do not heal properly, they will not have the capacity to commit to a new person. Your friend may need more time.
2) He is afraid. Some men avoid commitment because they do not want to go through another breakup or divorce. They are wary because of what happened before. Perhaps they got hurt in their divorce settlement. Perhaps their spouse cheated or perhaps they were abused verbally. Whatever happened, they do not want to risk going through it again.
3) He simply does not want to. He is happy with his life the way it is. He feels thay by committing, he would be tied down and unhappy. He refuses to give up his way of living.
4) He feels he is not with the right woman. Ouch! This could be for a variety of reasons. Perhaps he sees something abut a person he does not like, or he may just feel they are not compatible. Maybe he is too set in his single ways or maybe he just does not love the woman enough. (Ouch again!).

yar...1st part is about why men will not commit...2nd part maybe typing later...gotta go out soon....very true...every points are kinda covered in a way or another...

Gm today....very funny...everyone grabbing cip hrs...hahaha...and khairi very funny oso....hahaha his hair loh...den i spray him oso...ahahah den he kana shocked....lol...den i wrote the cip form in pink ink....haiz...i am changing....

i think if i am not able to participate actively in council...i will rather stay away than be unhappy about not doing being able to do anything....hahah i think i am a workaholic!!!

juz now talking to jiji....wahahaha...heng me sia...really practically everyone was at esplanade...and no one saw 2 distinctive blue uniform ppl walking about....stealth mode on i guess....

haiz...jialat....really manz...to be exact...cts are in about 17 days..3 subjs...less than 6 days for each subs...bleah....why time pass so fast?? i still havent enjoy myself yet leh.....hahah...

wahahaha...i'm gonna get married~!!!!! HOOORAYYYYY~!!!!

after losing my 1st wife...haiz...very very sad....so sad until nv cry....until now still thinking of my 1st wife...but now i think i haf bonded well wif the future wife...well....guess its time to get married...

oh ya..today finally did a passable jump smash.....yay~!!!

rubin's gifts...the gobstoppers are so going to make me gam zek...today i ate quite a bit....

haiz...muscles still aching...u dun farking hell not feel anything when u ran 21 rounds...did like 200++ pumping and crunches each...30 star jumps...60 X 20 jumping jacks....burpees...lost count...halfway thru...i was already asking myself...hmm...i think this is the last set already....and disappointment sets in everytime....again and again...when mr foo said...PUMPING POSITION~!!! wah fark manz....

if i dun say i am super hungry now...i am a kid....hahaha...left a super crappy note at jas's blog....hahah...need to complete gp tonite...study econs...charge my phone...watch meet my folks....tmr still got training...

but still....life is good....

as days go by...i am becoming more happy and assured....cos i think i found it...and understood it....

yest know tat today cannot go sch...so never go...really super tired...

bro paul...its time to scrap mass pe....

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super dumb kid....already got one super tired kid in class...S.T.K...now got one S.D.K...

the scriptwriter of final destination 2 muz be one super paranoid guy...always thinking of the worst....haiz....and seriously the show is making me damn paranoid oso...hahah....dun wanna think about it anymore....3 more shows to watch now....catch me if u can...the hot chick and maid in manhattan...

Rubin said it's romantic....

i tot its okie...

final destination 2 is a comedy....its really damn funny....so gory till its funny....

It was a nice vday....Happy belated vday for everyone....hope all of u enjoyed urself....

eh boss....seriously i think if u go buy 4D now...i think u will strike loh....really....

1 whole box of chocs for u to buy....1 big teddy bear to buy....not say got no money...juz whack oso see how rite....nv whack how wud u know..

okie time to go get down to work....day 1.....

beginning to play world class level of fifa 2003 now....wah damn exciting....

The F.A.P was set up in class today....Food Action Party....hahah and implemented the F.O.S....haha....the Food Order Securities....

dunno leh...today's shopping abit addictive...and i totally enjoyed myself today....and yet...i think the gift is too simple...cos suddenly i can actually buy a lot of things if i really want to...but that isnt the point...material wealth is nothing....its all in the heart....and yet...i oso think its not bad afterall....one of the classiest things i ever done....

got my v-day presents....bin pangseh me today....ask me go town...in the end he go there meet fren den dunwan shop wif me....

haha...i am beginning to love mass pe....

tham....no hope liao la....haiz....

haha...kidding...

haiz....i am really disappointed in my own behaviour 2 years ago....reading back on my blog...i ask for everyone's apology...i am sorry...

well...on the other hand...i felt relief...tat everyone of us are together....brothers hand in hand....10 years down the road...we shall still remain the same...

was talking to di about it....somehow i think i myself understand...tat we haf indeed grew older...more matured....no more childish fights...no more arguments....

for bcos....there's absolutely no point in it...suddenly i felt blessed...for everything turns out right in the end...=)

Gong Jiao~!!!

Emptiness...

erm....darkness...dead....white...hollow....nothing....

A spectre-horde repeating without charge.

erm....huh?

tham...enuf la...dun bully me leh....................

so anyway...do u need my help to get DS num?

anyone needs a perfect plan for v-day...pls approach mr liao rubin...our best occasion planner of the year....=p

I yawned. Air came out.
I farted. Air came out.
I breathe out. Air came out.
I rise my eyebrow. Air came out.
I press my handphone. Air came out.
I pissed. Air came out.
I spray baygon. Air came out.
I got a kiss from a rose. A smile came out.

tham....dun like dat leh....btw i use M1....

damn....got banged again today by phay...darn manz....think he's out to make a fool outta me....even put my name and photo for the whole lect to see....i only happened to have 22 d/ls when there are only 19 stuff to d/l....

aiya...cant i d/l and del and d/l again....bleah

got a poem comparison to do...geog CA assignment....geog test this fri...passage to india test next mon...bleah...

Had a very funny GM today....hahaha...really amusing and pek cek to see them kabbooom here and there....haiz...really need to warn them to move back a step...and try to accept things if possible....else the teachers are really gonna be damn freaking pissed at us.......

Dear Songyu: i think by now u shud know who the pillow was intended for....and pls....dun read my long long ago entries....they are a bit juvenile...haha

its really time to curb my jealousy...

but can time do anything...no i dun think so....

jialat la..how to not get jealous?????

juz now i saw a long legged spider/mosquito floating past me....

er...its either the spirit of the spider/mosquito that i killed yest....or a spider is hanging on the ceiling and a web juz caught in spider/mosquito...

trusting my eye sight and sanity...i think i will go for the 2nd option...haha...

had a nice CNY...really enjoy myself...but like usual...not enuf rest....well...time to start my engine....vrooommmmm~~

Jiang: yea i agree wif ur saying about CAC camp...tats why me, kenneth and zijie bumped ard on the 1st day....i dunno how to describe...but its juz tat u want to participate and be part of everything in college....well...about ur last entry...all i can say is humans are complex.